Some people think I am bipolar.
I guarantee it.
Some people think I am sick and need help.
I guarantee it.
Those people are projecting onto me their unconscious fear of their own lack of psychological control and stability,
Or that of someone close to them.
I probabilistically guarantee it.
I have often explored in many chapters of my life how I relate to this weighty psychological label.
There is no question I have travelled the extremes of the psychological spectrum.
How intimately I know the Higher Highs and the Lower Lows.
There is certainly bipolarity in that.
But am I Bipolar?
Not as the term is conventionally used.
Bipolar is not a mental illness.
Bipolarity is not a curse.
Bipolarity is a gift.
Bipolarity is increased emotional sensitivity to life.
Bipolarity is an incarnational decision to increase one’s risk/reward profile.
Bipolarity is increased access to the Vital Force of Life itself.
Bipolarity connects you more fully to the multi-dimensional energetic fluids of emotionality that serve as Teachers,
Washing over you, if you let them, with the intent to positively transform.
Bipolarity is a powerful weapon that is the source of some of the greatest creativity and expressions of Love and Spirit in Human History.
But it is also a powerful weapon that society is afraid of.
That Industrial Society has been designed to crush.
Like X-Men mutants who the conventional humans fear for their differences.
Conventional Society wants people to conform like Slavish Mechanical Cogs to its Industrial Machine.
Society wants docile employees, who color within the lines, follow the rules and do what they’re told.
There is no room for the hyper-creative who have visions of new possibilities and new lands.
The Status Quo is too fucking profitable.
There is no room for the hyper-sensitive who feel deep in their bones and soul that something in their world is not RIGHT.
Their heightened perception must be numbed.
Must be medicated out of existence.
Their feelings which point them to the Truth of the World and their Heart must be stopped.
They must be made to feel weak.
To feel their feelings are the problem.
Rather than Modern Society.
With its dysfunctional, self-perpetuating trauma-filled, isolationist, disconnected culture that gave rise to the feelings of depression and anxiety in the first place.
One of their Methods of Covert Authoritarianism is the Brutality of the Medical Establishment.
A profiteering, societal racketeering institution built on Biologically Reductionist Science designed to make the patient addicted and societally compliant rather than healthy and fulfilled.
Nearly 20% of Americans take a psychiatric drug for Depression or Anxiety.
On average Americans watch 5 hours of Television a day.
Another subversive method of mind-control to numb people from their Authentic Self.
Industrial Capitalist Society has Humanity by the Balls, Clamped in a Vice.
I have been deeply depressed, but I have never moved from Hypomania to Mania.
I have taken many natural supplements, but I have never taken a pharmacological drug.
And I hope I never do.
If you have, don’t be hard on yourself.
But know if you would like to truly find your Higher Self…
It will be very difficult to do while taking pharmacological substances designed to conform you to a narrow band of emotional states.
Pharmacological drugs are best seen as emergency psychic surgery when you take a psycho-spiritual tumble and break a metaphorical bone or bust up your metaphorical tissue…
And they are to be followed by a weaned path of rehabilitation to more authentic biochemistry.
If you are on these substances,
Know there is a way out.
Though it must done with love and care,
And the supervision of qualified medical professionals,
Ideally including ones who practice Holistic Medicine.
…And now we have begun a series of posts on Depression, Mental Illness & Spiritual Transformation.
I have thousands of words to spill on this subject in which I will cover subjects like:
– Why the medical establishment does not have people’s best interests at heart
– Why the DSM, psychiatry and pharmacology is fatally flawed
– How the lack of a larger spiritual evolutionary context of the human condition is the source of psychological confusion that begets depression and mental illness
– Powerful metaphors for reframing Depression, Anxiety and Bipolarity as the Empowering, Fierce, Creative Gift they are.
– Biohacking with supplements out of Mental Dysfunction into Optimal Health
– The dynamic feedback loops to the downside or upside between Biology, Psychology, Culture and Spirituality
– My personal stories about the excruciating pain and confusion of depressive episodes
– Resilient methods for relating to Suicidal Ideation
– The Nature of Suicide in a larger Existential Context
– How Depression can make you stronger and prepare you to fulfill your Destiny
Also published on Medium.