God, my alone feels so good, but lately I’ve craving something more, something deeper
I want love
But not just any kind of Love, no,
I want a love so deep it’d make the ocean jealous.
But I’ll only have you if you’re sweeter than my solitude. You must love me for everything I’m worth and then some.
Start with my eyes, look into them like you want to know all the good, bad, and anything beyond. From my eyes go to my mind, love me for everything I know and love me just as much to teach me what I do not.
Hold me in your arms, and love me for everything I am, from my breasts to my thighs, and even the scars that others have left behind
But tell me if you’re not up for it…Not that you don’t want me but rather you can’t handle me.
And please don’t say, “I won’t be like those other dudes and break your heart.”
You see my solitude has always been sweet, and during that time I learned to love myself before I could learn to love anyone else.
Give me the love that I’ve been craving, make the ocean jealous. Fall for my eyes without knowing me just yet
And then kiss me like you want to be loved just as much
Remember that I want to be loved as deep as the ocean, but remember that I am like the ocean
I can slip through your fingers, but manage to hold up an army of ships
Kiss me, hold me, love me, but tell me if you’re not up for it
I’ll only have you if you’re sweeter than my solitude
If you and your partner(s) can’t both reliably access a state of awakened awareness beyond the ordinary sense of self then any exploration of non-monogamy will inevitably lead to an increase in pain and suffering.
When you lose your cool, when you get triggered do you tell yourself to raise your game and live up to a higher standard?
Or do you justify why it was okay to lose your cool and ascribe fault to other people and external circumstances?
This is one of the key regular decisions that separates the extraordinary humans from the ordinary.
I love my morning meditation view so much.
There is a reason yogis go to the mountaintop.
The sparkling, harmonious, blissful, spacious, luminous nature of reality is unassailably clear.
People who don’t utilize the tool of debt and credit in their life have been afflicted by a false sense of lack.
They lack sufficient belief in themselves.
And they lack a willingness to invest in themselves for the long run and to bet on themselves.
The question for analyzing whether debt and credit is worth utilizing is very simple:
Can you create more value, faster with the money you are loaned than the interest rate you are given?
One of the worst decisions the masculine can make is to seek comfort.
The masculine grows through setting big goals, pushing to exhaustion and then savoring accomplishment in the recovery phase before setting a new bigger goal that lies beyond the new expanded comfort zone.
From the higher perspective there is no such thing as rejection.
There is just energy jostling around trying to find its way into proper alignment.
From the higher perspective there is no such thing as failure.
There is just feedback about what needs to be improved and recalibrated.
Black Panther was so much better than the Last Jedi.
Plot and Story Arc.
Character Development & Consistency.
Empowering portrayal of Cultural Minorities.
…the script for Luke Skywalker was particularly terrible…acting like someone who was never a Jedi
…so many of the Star Wars characters felt like forced affirmative action plays rather than authentic casting.
…One disappointing feature of the Wakandan’s was that for being so technologically and culturally advanced in many dimensions, they still had an Ethnocentric Worldview when looking to the outside world, opining about how to help downtrodden and oppressed blacks around the world rather than how to help downtrodden and oppressed humans with their technological prowess.
All for now. No time to be a detailed movie critic.
I am currently reading the Life Divine by Sri Aurobindo.
Who else has read it?
My personal website is titled In Quest of Super Humanity and I’m coming to see how my intuitive guidance has been (previously unbeknownst to me) plugged into the same source as Aurobindo’s, especially with respect to his articulation of the Supermind and its Divine Unfolding through Humanity’s Involutionary Process.
Your body is an instrument that the Consciousness of your Soul learns to play.
An Evolved Soul is therefore a masterful musician.
Back on my own again and restarting my cooking skills after 2 years of dormancy.
Immediately noticing a shift in my relationship to food preparation as I’ve deepened my relationship to the fundamentally universal nature of subtle energy in all things.
Succinct infographic of a lot of misguided class warfare and anti-wealth sentiment from the Liberal Left.
There’s an expression, ‘the moment he learned the word butterfly, he never saw it again’.
We have a tendency to forget to see fresh what we label with words.
Each butterfly is no longer seen as a unique, majestically colored, floating collection of miraculously synchronized particles.
Rather each time we see something moving around with the shape we call ‘butterfly’, we file the object into that mental filing cabinet without a moment of awe, wonder or appreciation.
We live in a prison of our conceptual mental landscape.
We classify all kinds of phenomena into labels and categories we already once defined.
We do this with people, too.
Once people are labeled “a good person or a bad person”, “selfish or selfless”, “intelligent or dumb”, “attractive or unattractive”, “successful or unsuccessful”, “sensitive or insensitive”, we rarely revise our labels.
Information that fits the label is quickly unconsciously tagged and stored. Information that does not is discarded.
Creating the illusion of a far more static, fixed reality, designed to make us feel safe by managing the complexity of this sometimes overwhelming world.
Learning through contemplative practice, to see through the unconscious automaticity of this mental construction process of our reality,
We have the opportunity to pierce the veil,
Experiencing the naked, fresh, continuous novelty of the undifferentiated phenomenological continuum, whose fundamental nature is raw, ultimate light and ultimate sound.
Say to yourself,
“I love myself.”
“I love myself.”
“I love myself.”
Does it feel true?
If not, please share, what is in the way?
And then keep repeating this mantra every day until you melt away all resistance.
Whatever resistance is still stubbornly persistent,
Dissolve it through action.
If you feel too guilty, take action to make amends.
If you feel too angry, offer a letter or words of forgiveness.
If you feel too ashamed, find compassion for yourself and others.
If you have too many negative people in your life tearing you down, raise your standards for who you let have an intimate role in your life.
That you are worthy of love from yourself and others is always true.
Even when you can’t see it.
But when you can,
Your life will Bloom like a Thousand Gardens in the Orchard of the Divine.
So say it to yourself,
“I love myself.”
“I love myself.”
“I love myself.”
Until Universal Truth becomes your Personal Truth.
Intelligence is the measure of the number and quality of distinctions you have in a given situation.
~ Tony Robbins
Intelligence is much less about intellectual horsepower, the speed of thought or the size of memory.
And much more about the quality of your mental models, the explicitness of your mental frameworks and the number of perspectives you can take.
‘Eskimos (Inuit) have over a dozen words for “snow.” Why? Because in their environment, and their culture, they have to if they want to achieve specific outcomes. They need to be able to describe to themselves and each other what kind of snow they can build an igloo out of, what kind of snow they can take their dogs through, what kind of snow they can eat, what kind of snow they are going to fall through…’
Intelligence is contextual.
Intelligence is learned.
Intelligence is earned.
The seeds of a Multi-Dimensional, Multi-Lifetime, Trans-Disciplinary, Consciously Transformational, Multi-Billion Dollar Business Empire have now been given Permission to Sprout.
Major Market and Ideological Disruption coming to a Phase Space near you!
I am its Cocky Humble Servant Gardening its Divine Energetic Expression.
Practice Patience as Destiny Fractally gathers the Life Force to Bloom.
This is a Multi-Decade Plan, not a Flash in the Pan.
Traction is here and I am Merely an Interstellar Point Man.
More Details Soon for How You Can Take Part.
As Conor McGregor, the Notorious One said, ”
[This] is the Law of Attraction, and it is the most powerful thing in the world. It is the belief that you are able to create whatever situation that you want for yourself, and no one can take it from you. It is believing something is already yours, and then doing whatever you have to so that it comes true.
If you can see it here and you have the courage enough to speak it, it will happen. I see these shots and sequences, and I don’t shy away from them. A lot of time people believe in certain things, but they keep it to themselves. They don’t put it out there. If you truly believe in it, if you become vocal with it, you are creating that Law of Attraction, and it will become reality.
This, the way I think and the way my mind goes, it is unstoppable. I can’t tell you exactly what it is, but it fucking works.”
Those people are projecting onto me their unconscious fear of their own lack of psychological control and stability,
Or that of someone close to them.
I probabilistically guarantee it.
I have often explored in many chapters of my life how I relate to this weighty psychological label.
There is no question I have travelled the extremes of the psychological spectrum.
How intimately I know the Higher Highs and the Lower Lows.
There is certainly bipolarity in that.
But am I Bipolar?
Not as the term is conventionally used.
Bipolar is not a mental illness.
Bipolarity is not a curse.
Bipolarity is a gift.
Bipolarity is increased emotional sensitivity to life.
Bipolarity is an incarnational decision to increase one’s risk/reward profile.
Bipolarity is increased access to the Vital Force of Life itself.
Bipolarity connects you more fully to the multi-dimensional energetic fluids of emotionality that serve as Teachers,
Washing over you, if you let them, with the intent to positively transform.
Bipolarity is a powerful weapon that is the source of some of the greatest creativity and expressions of Love and Spirit in Human History.
But it is also a powerful weapon that society is afraid of.
That Industrial Society has been designed to crush.
Like X-Men mutants who the conventional humans fear for their differences.
Conventional Society wants people to conform like Slavish Mechanical Cogs to its Industrial Machine.
Society wants docile employees, who color within the lines, follow the rules and do what they’re told.
There is no room for the hyper-creative who have visions of new possibilities and new lands.
The Status Quo is too fucking profitable.
There is no room for the hyper-sensitive who feel deep in their bones and soul that something in their world is not RIGHT.
Their heightened perception must be numbed.
Must be medicated out of existence.
Their feelings which point them to the Truth of the World and their Heart must be stopped.
They must be made to feel weak.
To feel their feelings are the problem.
Rather than Modern Society.
With its dysfunctional, self-perpetuating trauma-filled, isolationist, disconnected culture that gave rise to the feelings of depression and anxiety in the first place.
One of their Methods of Covert Authoritarianism is the Brutality of the Medical Establishment.
A profiteering, societal racketeering institution built on Biologically Reductionist Science designed to make the patient addicted and societally compliant rather than healthy and fulfilled.
Nearly 20% of Americans take a psychiatric drug for Depression or Anxiety.
On average Americans watch 5 hours of Television a day.
Another subversive method of mind-control to numb people from their Authentic Self.
Industrial Capitalist Society has Humanity by the Balls, Clamped in a Vice.
I have been deeply depressed, but I have never moved from Hypomania to Mania.
I have taken many natural supplements, but I have never taken a pharmacological drug.
And I hope I never do.
If you have, don’t be hard on yourself.
But know if you would like to truly find your Higher Self…
It will be very difficult to do while taking pharmacological substances designed to conform you to a narrow band of emotional states.
Pharmacological drugs are best seen as emergency psychic surgery when you take a psycho-spiritual tumble and break a metaphorical bone or bust up your metaphorical tissue…
And they are to be followed by a weaned path of rehabilitation to more authentic biochemistry.
If you are on these substances,
Know there is a way out.
Though it must done with love and care,
And the supervision of qualified medical professionals,
Ideally including ones who practice Holistic Medicine.
…And now we have begun a series of posts on Depression, Mental Illness & Spiritual Transformation.
I have thousands of words to spill on this subject in which I will cover subjects like:
– Why the medical establishment does not have people’s best interests at heart
– Why the DSM, psychiatry and pharmacology is fatally flawed
– How the lack of a larger spiritual evolutionary context of the human condition is the source of psychological confusion that begets depression and mental illness
– Powerful metaphors for reframing Depression, Anxiety and Bipolarity as the Empowering, Fierce, Creative Gift they are.
– Biohacking with supplements out of Mental Dysfunction into Optimal Health
– The dynamic feedback loops to the downside or upside between Biology, Psychology, Culture and Spirituality
– My personal stories about the excruciating pain and confusion of depressive episodes
– Resilient methods for relating to Suicidal Ideation
– The Nature of Suicide in a larger Existential Context
– How Depression can make you stronger and prepare you to fulfill your Destiny