On Love, Creativity & Vulnerability

I would like to balance the sharing of my Warrior Archetype with my Lover Archetype.

Last month My Love Eleanor Tara wrote and recorded a song for me.

Shortly after receiving her Beautiful Musical Transmission of Love, I wanted to reciprocate.

This song by John Legend came to me as the perfect tune to capture my feelings for her.

This was my take two.

It is rough, but I don’t care.

Creativity is fueled by shipping.

Creativity is fueled by faithfully and shamelessly investing in the process.

I used to not sing, as little as a few years ago, because I was told could not carry a tune.

I used to not be able to dance.

I used to not be able to write.

I used to not know how to create a startup.

I used to not know how the world worked.

But I got better by showing up, by deliberately practicing, and putting myself out there, continuously and completely.

“Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take awhile. It’s normal to take awhile. You’ve just gotta fight your way through.” – Ira Glass

Creativity is fueled by Love.

Love for the self you are today

Love for the self you will become

Love for the people your transmission will touch

Rumi famously wrote, ‘You are the Universe in Ecstatic Motion”

Many Integral Philosophers like Ken Wilber, Marc Gafni and Daniel Schmachtenberger have pointed out that the Universe is Erotically Unfolding its Novelty unto Itself to come to know Itself.

I say, Creativity is inextricably connected to the Erotic Love Force that keeps the Universe in Ecstatic Motion.

You are the Universe Experiencing itself.

…More Rumi,“You are not a drop in the ocean. You are the entire ocean in a drop.””

Through the Sharing of Your Creativity, You and the Universe are Simultaneously Loved into The Higher Self

An ever-present, ever-evolving Perfect Imperfect Self.

All of Me

Loves All of You.

Journaled Reflection on Integral Theory, Entrepreneurship and My Journey

Journaled Reflections on:

– The Societally Transformative Power of Integral Theory

– The Intersection of Integral Theory and Technology Entrepreneurship

– Highs and Lows on My 6 Year Journey to Develop a New Paradigm for the Management Science of Entrepreneurship and Innovation


Bold, eloquent profundity from my friend Zak Stein at the Integral Theory Conference this July on a debate panel on Human Development and Global Crises.

“Although we are sometimes in dialogues like this [pitted against each other], we are so fundamentally on the same team. And it is critical to understand how essential it is we get our acts together as a team, even though we have diverse perspectives. You have to understand we are in the midst of a compounding meta-crisis at the global level. One of the crises, is a crisis of Capability, which is an Educational crisis. And as the situation gets worse we’re going to have increasingly coercive measures used to change the nature of human capital. The most obvious one is psychopharmacology. Which is an actual physical intervention into the central nervous system of over 6 million children in the United States. And this is because we have a psychology that does understand development organically— or development at all. So there’s a way in which we are debating, but a much more profound way, in which one of our tasks is to change the way we think about what it means to change people’s minds. And that requires thinking deeply about developmental psychology, and developmental measurement, and trying to supplant what has become a Human Capital Management System on a global scale, that is decimating the life prospects of up and coming generations. So there’s an urgency I feel to align and to build a way forward for Human Development as a field, if only so that the Educational Systems of tomorrow are dignified.”

(Source: http://www.zakstein.org/human-development-and-global-crise…/)

Zak is a trailblazer in the field of Developmental Psychology and it’s applicative dissemination in the worlds of Education, Business and much more.

I was at this debate live in July at the Integral Theory Conference. It was a true highlight: Zak, this panel, and this community of Integral Philosophers, Scholars and Practitioners, who are light years ahead of the mainstream Intelligentsia.

This differential between cutting edge thought and mainstream Intelligentsia has led to a world where the leaders of Education, Business and Politics are “in over their heads”, working with tools and models with insufficient requisite capacity to handle the enormous complexity of today’s 21st century world. As a result: Societal Chaos, all around, barely being held together by systemic inertia.

Essential aspects of the Future of Humanity live in the minds of those attended the Integral Theory Conference in July. Potent Visions waiting to virulently spread through Culture as a Memetic Virus as soon as the conditions are right.

A big part of my work right now is in setting the conditions for this Academic to Market transference by integrating Integral Theory’s cutting edge philosophical and psychology paradigms, methods and tools into the world of Technology Entrepreneurship — the most powerful engine of socio-economic progress. The co-arising of Integral Theory, Startup Management Science and a Transformational Ethic generating Societal Bliss like Peanut Butter and Jelly…or Shiva and Shakti.

What I am able to do with these Integral tools often astounds me in its power and its simplicity. Science fiction author Arthur C. Clarke who wrote 2001: a Space Odyssey famously said, “Any sufficiently advanced technology is indistinguishable from magic.”

Learning from brilliant Integral thinkers like Zak, Ken Wilber, John M. Smart, Robert Kegan, Clare Graves, Bill Torbert, Susanne Cook Greuter, Michael Commons, Daniel Schmachtenberger, Dustin DiPerna and so many more…I feel like I’m working with true 21st century Magic.

My work has been ramping up with exponentiating pace the last few months. I’ve started applying my latest Startup Science work with founders, in service to their vision, and in service to generating case studies and conceptual and methodological refinement.

I’ve put more brain cycles into the development of the Management Science of Entrepreneurship than anything else in the past 6 years; and to feel its present coherence, clarity, fractality, power, and precision in describing and prescriptively guiding transformational tech startups warms my heart with love, gratitude, and quite frankly relief — that all my intellectual wandering was not for naught.

I am in deep gratitude to my Intellectual Forefathers and Foremothers whose Giant Shoulders I stand on that make my work possible. At times I have felt incredibly isolated, alone and weary, journeying into the disorienting worlds of undiscovered and uncreated thought forms.

Attempting to build a new paradigm for the Management Science of Entrepreneurship and Innovation is not a quest for the faint of heart. But “No Man is an Island”, and my inextricable, interconnection to the aforementioned ideas and thinkers gave me the strength I could wander through the Intellectual Valley of Death, not get lost and make it out alive with Buried Treasure.

I don’t have any exciting new quantifiable results to share with you yet, but I know a Golden Thread when I’ve found it and I trust the autopoetic process of unfolding that is occurring before my eyes.

I’m very much looking forward to sharing and co-creating Magic with you all in the near future, so that we may Realize a more Perfect World.

A ho!

Reflections on a Recent Meditation Retreat & Spirituality in the Age of the Internet

Thank you for all the Birthday wishes while I was gone. I very much appreciated the feeling of connectedness.

I returned home last night from a week long Tibetan Mahamudra Retreat in Boston with Dan Brown, one of the foremost masters in the West of this powerful ancient school of wisdom and spirituality.

( http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B003XF1LM0?btkr=1 //http://pointingoutway.org/)

I am very careful when I select any new form of information to absorb, especially new teachers. My intention is to select the most powerful, cutting edge knowledge with the highest signal to noise ratio I can while taking on as few outdated beliefs, blind spots and pathologies as possible.

Up until now in my spiritual path, I have been fortunate to live in a day and age where the teachings of so many incredibly developed humans is readily accessible in the emerging omni-present global brain that engulfs the globe — albeit in towns tucked away in oft-overlooked exits off the information super highway — enabling me to forge a unique multidisciplinary and multi-perspectival path unencumbered by the inevitable historical limitations of having to submit to a single teacher or philosophy to have access to a stream of wisdom.

With regard to meditation in particular, I was not willing to absorb, what I recognized and had confirmed to be the impurities and diluted practices of much of the meditation practice that made it to the West, most prominently Theravadan, Vipassana style Buddhist meditation.

Due to the path I’ve taken this retreat was simultaneously a critical learning experience and a refreshing review. Through my many previous virtual teachers, I had visited and internalized all the major stations we walked on the path this week, and stabilized most in my awareness to some degree, but none of my previous teachers had covered the territory with this degree of precision and with such a comprehensive set of strength building tools.

I return home with a deeper grounding and orientation for the progress and realizations I have autodidactly attained, and the knowledge I needed to. thru diligent practice, enable sprouted seeds to flourish further.

An overview of the week might be described as:

– Walking Asanga’s 9 Stage Elephant path in the quest of taming the Wild Elephant of our minds and stabilizing concentration (automatic samadhi)

– Purifying our minds with awareness meditation by clearing away the obscuring clouds of Self-Representation, Emotions, Thoughts and Time through the recognition of their inherent Emptiness.

– Opening up the true fresh, simple, non-dual nature of mind by opening awakened awareness to itself.

I am looking forward to the adventures that lie further down this path.

I definitely recommend you check out this most potent lineage, which is intimately connected to the Dalai Lama’s tradition and its on going quest to properly transmit Buddhism to the west.

A Day In The Life

Here’s a temperate day in the life post to mix it up

So I just moved to the marina temporarily and had some extra energy tonight after hive ended at 10. So I decided to check out the night scene since I actually haven’t lived in any place where it was just a short walk away. All the other places were too residential.

Sure enough MatrixFillmore is open and has an actual hopping dance floor on a Sunday in San Francisco. What do you know?

So after loosening up a little and seeing it’s not my normal social scene if you know what I mean, I see if I can open up a dance circle and bust a few times before I leave. Sure enough I succeed.

I couldn’t always do this.

Though disappointedly I still can’t make new friends very well when it’s too loud to have a conversation. And I don’t know what part is me or them. I actually tried asking but alas couldn’t hear the answer.

Nonetheless, it’s pretty fascinating to go from incompetent to top 3 dancer in the room almost everytime.

It’s really a different world once you get outside of the matrix. (Pun not intended actually smile emoticon )

Quite peaceful. Quite liberating. There’s discomfort but rarely fear.

And the fear that is left is simply waiting to be engaged so it can be released.

Dark really does want to shine in the light.

What a fun game we have been given the opportunity to play.

This life thing that is.

I’m grateful.

Honoring the journey wherever it takes me.

It’s all wet.

But while we are here we might as well make some big waves.

The Sphere of Knowledge, The Blanket of Ignorance & The Spirit of Progress

Don’t be deterred by the feeling of smallness that results from expanding your knowledge.

As you learn more you will inevitably realize how much you don’t know.

This may even make you feel stupid.

But don’t let it stop you.

Life is not about protecting your ego from any sign that it might be overinflated.

Again, the process perspective is a big part of the solution for forward progress.


The other crucial part is to recognize the whole dynamic of why of learning more can overwhelm you.

Let’s create a diagram in our heads to make sense of this.

Draw a circle.

Fill it in black.

Everything in that circle is what you know.

It is your knowledge.

Extend the radius of the circle a few inches beyond the perimeter of the circle and shade this area grey.

This is everything “You know you don’t know”.

The reason you feel stupid whenever you learn something new is because the grey area always expands faster than the black area.

Or in other words, your awareness of your “un-knowledge” always expands faster than your “knowledge”.

And although this may feel disheartening it really shouldn’t.


1) Knowing you don’t know something isn’t a bad thing, it’s actually a really GOOD thing.

Knowing “you don’t know something” prevents you from being blindsided by it.

If you don’t know anything about asset allocation you might decide to invest your entire net worth in the stock market because it feels right, and foolishly expose yourself to so much risk you lose all your money due to inability to withstand natural volatility.

But if “you know you don’t know” anything about asset allocation you can hire a money manager to properly balance the risk in your portfolio.

If “you know you don’t know” something you can ask for help.

The real evil is not “knowing you don’t know” something.

It’s “Not knowing you don’t know something”.

Or, in other words, “What you don’t know you don’t know”.

Scholar Umberto Eco famously had a library with 30,000 books, most of which he never read. This he called his “anti-library”


Nassim Taleb highlighted this story of the Anti-Library as a way of reducing exposure to Black Swans. Big disastrous events hardly anybody saw coming like 9/11 Terrorist attacks, Katrina and the broken levees, and 2008 financial crises.

Let’s return to the diagram of the circle.

The black area is “what you know”.

The grey area is “what you know you don’t know”.

The rest of the empty space is “what you don’t know you don’t know”

Whenever the circle increases. The black increases. The grey increases more. But the white area shrinks.

2) The more you know the more you can do.

How could this possibly be a bad thing?

So what, if you can’t learn EVERYTHING?

Get over your omniscient God Complex.

Life is about learning, growing, adapting and creating.

The more you know the more you can build.

You’ve learned how to walk, how to speak, how to read, how to write. Don’t stop there.

You can learn to create products, services, and theories that CHANGE PEOPLE’S LIVES.


But not if you stop learning because it makes you feel stupid and uncomfortable.

“We’re here to put a dent in the universe. Otherwise why else even be here?”

– Steve Jobs

3) No Man is an Island

“No man is an island, entire of itself…any man’s death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind; and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee.”
– John Donne

Our circle of knowledge does not stand alone and isolated in this world.

Our circle of knowledge is connected in some sense to every single human on this planet.

Furthermore, our circle of knowledge can be seen as connected to every single human who has EVER LIVED!

We are all part of one vast evolutionary tree.

Yet the process of knowledge acquisition begins not just with humans, but 13.75 Billion Years ago with the singular big bang of energy that gave rise to the known universe and has been creating more order, more complexity, more syntropy more sentience and more beauty ever since.

Our circle of knowledge does not stand alone.

Our circle of knowledge is one continuous patch of a universal quilt that is always expanding.

Lest the grandiosity make you feel insignificant again, it need not.

Throughout history, humans have pushed their individual circles farther than anyone in human history ever has before.

This story points to the great spiritual truth of the relationship between the “ONE” and “THE MANY”.

We do not stand alone.

We stand on the shoulders of giants.

When we reach new heights, this is called discovery.

And the global quilt of human knowledge grows because one individual was brave enough, determined enough, to venture into the perilous clouds of the unknown and extend their circle of knowledge farther than anyone had before.

But discovery isn’t the only thing that matters.

There’s also invention.

Invention occurs when we combine our circles of knowledge and abilities in new ways, often in collaboration with other people and their complimentary circles of knowledge, to create artwork, objects and tools that push new boundaries, expand human consciousness and amplify human potential.

In fact, discovery and invention are inextricably intertwined like the double helix of DNA.

The discovery of knowledge enables the creation of new tools that enable the exploration of the world in new ways, which in return let us acquire new knowledge about the world.

So goes the emergent self-propagating cycle autopoiesis

And lest you think it’s all an exterior process, we must not forget the role of art, poetry and metaphor which expand consciousness in ways that let us ask questions we never dared to ask before.

Return once more to the diagram of the circle.

Why do questions matter?

Questions are what drive the vast barren landscape of white

into grey

So in turn they can made black

And stitched into the fabric of the known universe.

I will leave you with a few quotes on the primacy of questions:

To raise new questions, new possibilities, to regard old problems from a new angle, requires creative imagination and marks real advance in science.
-Albert Einstein

Judge a man by his questions rather than his answers.

Dreams are today’s answers to tomorrow’s questions.
– Edgar Cayce

Stop Making Excuses For Your Stagnation

There is no excuse for not making time to learn.

There is idle time everyday that can be converted into wisdom and personal growth.

If you are not making use of this time it is probably because your DESIRE is not strong enough.

It is not because there is not enough time.

Stop making excuses.

With strong enough desire, ideas can flow through your ears while making breakfast, while eating lunch, while driving, while brushing your teeth, while walking from one place to another…

What are you doing every day to become a better, wiser, more evolved and enlightened person?

Your Evolving Integral Psychograph

You exist at a particular level of development across dozens of developmental lines.

This includes lines such as ego-development, moral-development, cognitive development, kinesthetic development, etc. etc.

(This is called your Integral Psychograph)

As a result you will most likely misunderstand or be unable to perceive everything that occurs in the levels development above you.

This includes both emergent potentials and structures that already exist!

But the sad truth is most people do not grow beyond Adolescence. They accept that who they are is the amalgamation of what their family, friends and society tell them they should be. Anything else is unknown. And the unknown is to be feared. The unknown is safe. Most people optimize for comfort, familiarity and security.

They optimize for the antithesis of growth.

But it does not have to be this way. Humans are not static beings or structures. We can learn. We can grow. We can evolve.

The misunderstood can become understood. The invisible can become visible. The potential can become real.

This IS perhaps the defining characteristic of human nature.

Yet we must also recognize that “Anything is not possible”. There are real structural limits to our evolution and development.

Some things are just physically impossible. Or practically psychologically or socially impossible.

Economic systems are not significant to animals because they can’t perceive them.

But this does not mean that economic systems don’t exist or that they aren’t extremely valuable.

This kind of misunderstanding and obliviousness is happening all the time as humans communicate within and across cultures.

Recently, I have been sharing many ideas on facebook that come from a holistically integral perspective, or Turquoise in Spiral Dynamics terms. To anyone not at this level of development, on at least some of their developmental lines, all these ideas of mine will likely appear irrelevant, or be misunderstood as arrogant.

To the extent I am talking to one person or a group of people I try to use language and values that will resonate with them, but when talking to many people at once this is often impossible.

You can’t please everyone.

C’est la vie.

Find yourself.

March to the beat of your own drum.

Don’t compromise.

Stay on your journey.



Don’t Settle.

Never Give Up.


You reap what you sow.

Life isn’t fair.

As it should be.

You will live the life you deserve.