A Beautiful Poem on Love, Self-Worth, and Solitude

 

Solitude

God, my alone feels so good, but lately I’ve craving something more, something deeper
I want love
But not just any kind of Love, no,
I want a love so deep it’d make the ocean jealous.
But I’ll only have you if you’re sweeter than my solitude. You must love me for everything I’m worth and then some.
Start with my eyes, look into them like you want to know all the good, bad, and anything beyond. From my eyes go to my mind, love me for everything I know and love me just as much to teach me what I do not.
Hold me in your arms, and love me for everything I am, from my breasts to my thighs, and even the scars that others have left behind
But tell me if you’re not up for it…Not that you don’t want me but rather you can’t handle me.
And please don’t say, “I won’t be like those other dudes and break your heart.”
You see my solitude has always been sweet, and during that time I learned to love myself before I could learn to love anyone else.
Give me the love that I’ve been craving, make the ocean jealous. Fall for my eyes without knowing me just yet
And then kiss me like you want to be loved just as much
Remember that I want to be loved as deep as the ocean, but remember that I am like the ocean
I can slip through your fingers, but manage to hold up an army of ships
Kiss me, hold me, love me, but tell me if you’re not up for it
I’ll only have you if you’re sweeter than my solitude

My Rhythm

Finally hit a wall and needed to take my first weekend off in 2018, 6 weeks in.

When you are chasing multi-dimensional greatness you run on a different rhythm.

Aside from a few extended periods of depression, where I needed to shut everything down and do deeper cleansing and integration work, I’ve been pushing myself to exhaustion in this rhythm since I turned 13.

Study the greats.

Take inspiration from the greats.

Live your soul’s unique expression of greatness.

Elon Musk

Work like hell. I mean you just have to put in 80 to 100 hour weeks every week. If other people are putting in 40 hour workweeks and you’re putting in 100 hour workweeks, you know that you will achieve in four months what it takes them a year to achieve.

Kobe Bryant

If your job is to be the best basketball player you can be, to do that you have to practice and train, you have train as much as you can, as often as you can. So if you get up at 10 in the morning, train at 12, train for 2 hours, 12-2, you have to let your body recover, so you eat and recover, you get back out and train from 6-8 and then you go home, eat, shower, go to bed do it again. Those are 2 sessions. Imagine you wake up at 3, train 4-6am, eat breakfast, relax, go back at it 9 to 11, then you’re back at it again 2-4, then back at again 7-9…look at how much more training I’ve done by starting at 4am. You do that as the years go on, the separation you have with your competitors and your peers, just grows larger and larger and by years 5 to 6, it doesn’t matter what type of work they’re doing in the summer, they’re never going to catch up, because they’re 5 years behind.

Will Smith

I’ve never really viewed myself as particularly talented. I’ve viewed myself as slightly above average in talent. And where I excel is ridiculous, sickening, work ethic. You know, while the other guy’s sleeping? I’m working. While the other guy’s eatin’? I’m working. While the other guy’s making love, I mean, I’m making love, too. But I’m working really hard at it.

Drake

Yeah uh, look, fuck all that happy to be here shit that y’all want me on
I’m the big homie, they still be tryna lil’ bro me dog
Like I should fall in line, like I should alert niggas
When I’m ’bout to drop somethin’ crazy and I say I’m the greatest of my generation
Like I should be dressin’ different
Like I should be less aggressive and pessimistic
Like I should be way more nervous and less dismissive
Like I should be on my best behavior
And not talk my shit and do it major like the niggas who paved the way for us
Like I didn’t study the game to the letter
And understand that I’m not doin’ it the same, man, I’m doin’ it better
Like I didn’t make that clearer this year
Like I should feel, I don’t know, guilty for saying that
They should put a couple more mirrors in here so I can stare at myself
These are usually just some thoughts that I would share with myself
But I thought “Fuck it”.

Pithy Post Potpourri – Winter/Spring 2018

If you and your partner(s) can’t both reliably access a state of awakened awareness beyond the ordinary sense of self then any exploration of non-monogamy will inevitably lead to an increase in pain and suffering.

#PsychographicEntryCriteria

When you lose your cool, when you get triggered do you tell yourself to raise your game and live up to a higher standard?

Or do you justify why it was okay to lose your cool and ascribe fault to other people and external circumstances?

This is one of the key regular decisions that separates the extraordinary humans from the ordinary.

I love my morning meditation view so much.

There is a reason yogis go to the mountaintop.

The sparkling, harmonious, blissful, spacious, luminous nature of reality is unassailably clear.

People who don’t utilize the tool of debt and credit in their life have been afflicted by a false sense of lack.

They lack sufficient belief in themselves.

And they lack a willingness to invest in themselves for the long run and to bet on themselves.

The question for analyzing whether debt and credit is worth utilizing is very simple:

Can you create more value, faster with the money you are loaned than the interest rate you are given?

One of the worst decisions the masculine can make is to seek comfort.

The masculine grows through setting big goals, pushing to exhaustion and then savoring accomplishment in the recovery phase before setting a new bigger goal that lies beyond the new expanded comfort zone.

From the higher perspective there is no such thing as rejection.

There is just energy jostling around trying to find its way into proper alignment.

From the higher perspective there is no such thing as failure.

There is just feedback about what needs to be improved and recalibrated.

Black Panther was so much better than the Last Jedi.

Plot and Story Arc.

Character Development & Consistency.

Visual Effects.

Empowering portrayal of Cultural Minorities.

…the script for Luke Skywalker was particularly terrible…acting like someone who was never a Jedi

…so many of the Star Wars characters felt like forced affirmative action plays rather than authentic casting.

…One disappointing feature of the Wakandan’s was that for being so technologically and culturally advanced in many dimensions, they still had an Ethnocentric Worldview when looking to the outside world, opining about how to help downtrodden and oppressed blacks around the world rather than how to help downtrodden and oppressed humans with their technological prowess.

All for now. No time to be a detailed movie critic.

I am currently reading the Life Divine by Sri Aurobindo.

Who else has read it?

My personal website is titled In Quest of Super Humanity and I’m coming to see how my intuitive guidance has been (previously unbeknownst to me) plugged into the same source as Aurobindo’s, especially with respect to his articulation of the Supermind and its Divine Unfolding through Humanity’s Involutionary Process.

Your body is an instrument that the Consciousness of your Soul learns to play.

An Evolved Soul is therefore a masterful musician.

Back on my own again and restarting my cooking skills after 2 years of dormancy.

Immediately noticing a shift in my relationship to food preparation as I’ve deepened my relationship to the fundamentally universal nature of subtle energy in all things.

Succinct infographic of a lot of misguided class warfare and anti-wealth sentiment from the Liberal Left.

 

The Gift of Near-Death Experiences

Many in Hawaii just received this message texted to phones:

BALLISTIC MISSLE THREAT INBOUND TO HAWAII. SEEK IMMEDIATE SHELTER. THIS IS NOT A DRILL.

It turned out to be a false alarm.

Personally, I see this error as a gift.

Steve Jobs captures why quite beautifully:

“Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure – these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.”

Unfortunately, most people who have encountered this quote kept it at arms length.

They haven’t really taken the time to internalize the reality that they could be dead soon.

That is the beauty of what those in Hawaii just experienced.

It felt unequivocally real.

If it said, “This IS a drill”, the real-ness would have vanished.

The key is to use this experience of potential impending death to transform your life and burn away all that is false and non-essential rather than contracting into fear and trauma.

I have meditated on my death for many years.

Often repeating the mantra, “I’m already dead. I’m already dead.”

And have experienced unmistakable physiological changes during and after the mantra repetition as a result.

As such, I am prepared to die at any moment.

This prepares me to not just to leave my physical body, passing into the Bardo equinanimously, but also fearlessly take on whatever challenge I must.

Additionally it enables me to do what Eric Thomas said is the most important thing required for success. “to be able at any moment to sacrifice what you are, for what you will become.”

Of course, I have the benefit of knowing that death is merely a transitory state, one that is expansive and painless if you can relax into it.

I know death is an experience my soul has been through millions of times before.

As has yours.

Even if doubt clouds your recognition.

I would consider it a bummer if I died tomorrow.

I still have much to fulfill in my karmic contract and have set large energetic waves in motion that I would like to see come to fruition.

But I would accept my fate and begin preparing for the next life like a champion readying for a new season.

So use any near death experience you have in your life to get in deeper touch with your True Nature.

And take inspiration from other’s near death experiences to move beyond your own fear of death now.

On Accountability Partners for Visions, Goals, and Resolutions

Personally, I almost never use accountability partners or other people to hold me accountable to my goals or resolutions.

I am accountable to myself and the high standards I set for myself.

And that is all I need.

If you need someone else to hold you accountable to your goals and resolutions that probably means you have these two things going on:

1) You don’t want it bad enough.

You need to increase the compellingness of your vision, goals and resolutions and anchor them with more burning desire, emotional intensity and physical movement.

2) You have unresolved parts conflict.

Part of you wants to realize your vision, goals and resolution, but other parts don’t.

This can happen because other parts have other conflicting beliefs or fears about what will happen if those visions or goals are realized.

Like, “What if I’m too successful and I can’t handle it”…or “what if xyz people don’t like me anymore once I make this change in my life”.

You have to consciously talk to the different parts of yourself and get in full parts alignment within yourself.

In the interim, if accountability partners help you move towards your vision, goals and resolutions, then use them…as progress will create the momentum and confidence for more progress, and eventually taking off the ‘training wheels’ of accountability buddies.

Trapped in a Story of Healing

Many people are trapped in a story of healing, often as mode of avoidance of something deeper and more painful — not knowing and living their life purpose.

So they hide behind the story that they can’t pursue their life purpose because they’re ‘broken’, ‘wounded’ or ‘just not healed enough yet’.

The question isn’t whether you are fully healed.

Life is constantly producing damage as we live.

So we must constantly cycle between stress and recovery.

The question for people focused on their healing is,

“What would you do if you were fully healed and why are you not doing that now?

And, “how will you know when you have healed enough to pursue what your Higher Self wants to pursue?”

For biological healing, say for an athlete this is simple.

When they tear their ACL, they rehab for 9-12 months and resume their athletic activities once the knee can handle a sufficient weight load and the leg has sufficient mobility.

Emotional, Psychological and Spiritual wounding is more subtle and complicated, less objective, and much easier to hide within.

Often when people overcome the fear to go after what they really want many of the other ailments heal themselves relatively naturally and effortlessly.

It is said that the two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why.

So if you are struggling to heal and you don’t know why you are here on Earth and what you’re here to do, I encourage you to go deep into that exploration and see if progress on that journey, doesn’t end up resolving much of the healing you’re seeking.