On Getting Back Up

 

Life inevitably has ups and downs.

When I was knocked down hard in the past, I stayed down for longer than I needed, because in going all in and coming up short, I didn’t emotionally, mentally and spiritually prepare well enough for the losses and failures.

The pain, disappointment and devastation hit me harder than I was expecting. 

Add to that, I was curious about the dark. A part of me wanted to know after efforting so much to chase after my mission and purpose since the ripe age of 13, swimming upstream stroke after stroke, overcoming obstacles and resistances day after day, what would happen if I just let all my pushing go and let the river of darkness pick me up off my feet and take me downstream?

Last year my cycles of initiation were completed. The curiosity satiated. The lies of depression understood. The psychological brush fires painfully burning away all false attachments, to reveal only the indestructible core of my essence.

Showing me there is literally nothing to fear. Allowing me to journey forth with boundless freedom, unshakeable confidence and inexhaustible enthusiasm.

An Absolute Truth containing all the energetic undulance of the universe’s inevitable pulsations of expansion and contraction.

What Einstein Had to Say About Alignment

Einstein is speaking to proper alignment within the Immanent Holarchy of the Spirit -> Soul -> Personality.

Your agency is your self. Your Body/Mind.

Your True Identity is All of Existence. 

Your Task is to over come the persistent illusory prison that you are your Body/Mind.

Your Process is recognizing all the energetic Self-contractions that manifest as limiting beliefs, unresolved traumas, and negative emotions like fear, uncertainty and doubt that stand between you and Identifying as All of Existence.

It is here where unending Liberation and Positive Flourishing is found.

A Beautiful Poem on Love, Self-Worth, and Solitude

 

Solitude

God, my alone feels so good, but lately I’ve craving something more, something deeper
I want love
But not just any kind of Love, no,
I want a love so deep it’d make the ocean jealous.
But I’ll only have you if you’re sweeter than my solitude. You must love me for everything I’m worth and then some.
Start with my eyes, look into them like you want to know all the good, bad, and anything beyond. From my eyes go to my mind, love me for everything I know and love me just as much to teach me what I do not.
Hold me in your arms, and love me for everything I am, from my breasts to my thighs, and even the scars that others have left behind
But tell me if you’re not up for it…Not that you don’t want me but rather you can’t handle me.
And please don’t say, “I won’t be like those other dudes and break your heart.”
You see my solitude has always been sweet, and during that time I learned to love myself before I could learn to love anyone else.
Give me the love that I’ve been craving, make the ocean jealous. Fall for my eyes without knowing me just yet
And then kiss me like you want to be loved just as much
Remember that I want to be loved as deep as the ocean, but remember that I am like the ocean
I can slip through your fingers, but manage to hold up an army of ships
Kiss me, hold me, love me, but tell me if you’re not up for it
I’ll only have you if you’re sweeter than my solitude

Someone in a Private Facebook Group I follow asked me this Question, and I thought I would give my Answer:

Are we as a Species Fucked ? For real ?

Not to sound gravely pessimistic yet how many dire local and World wide issues are there to even deal with ?

Really what do you think/feel about our overwhelming societal problems ?

If we get down real into the background feeling behind daily doings, does your Being feel we are doomed as a species ?

Candid truth please 🙏🏽

No solutions needed for this post and comments…just your real feeling please 🙏🏽


Whatever your perspective is:

The world is doomed,

Or, we are living in the best time in human history.

You will find evidence to support your perspective.

My perspective is that we are at the best time in human history, but we are also facing more complex problems than ever before, which can feel overwhelming to many.

But this is how all complex adaptive evolutionary systems work — as they grow and complexify, so do the problems they are confronted with.

These are simply growing pains.

Sometimes complex systems advance to a new level of coherence and sometimes they fail and take a step back, stabilize and then accelerate from that base.

Some dimensions of the world are making the leap to the next level whereas others are self correcting by taking a step back.

There’s enough resiliency in the world system now that I don’t believe we are at risk of existential collapse, although the potential for things to get pretty ugly is there.

On Putting My Energy into My Journey

One of the biggest misunderstandings about my social media presence comes from the many people who think I am trying to signal I’m better than everyone else for some kind of narcissistic grandeur.

No, I am intending to signal that we all can become our best selves through hard work and putting our life energy in the areas that bring the most results.

If you think I’m a narcissist, that’s a projection from your own shadow and lack of conviction in your own true self worth.

I am sharing my own authentic journey thru the highs and lows to find those on aligned journeys and inspire and guide others who are ready to take the plunge into the unknown of their own Hero’s Journey.

I believe everyone inside themselves has the blueprint for their own manifest Hero’s Journey and unmanifest journey of Self-Realization.

It’s just a matter of whether people are willing to confront their fears and doubts and Heed the Call.

Life isn’t meant to be about the construction of small worlds of complacent safety and comfort.

Life is meant to be an Adventure.

Through the Outer Planes of Jungles, Mountains and Cities and the Inner Planes of Consciousness.

It’s Just a Ride, By Bill Hicks

The world is like a ride at an amusement park, and when you choose to go on it, you think it’s real, because that’s how powerful our minds are. And the ride goes up and down and round and round and it has thrills and chills and it’s very brightly colored and it’s very loud. And it’s fun, for a while.

Some people have been on the ride for a long time, and they begin to question: ‘Is this real? Or is this just a ride?’ And other people have remembered, and they come back to us and they say ‘Hey! Don’t worry, don’t be afraid — ever — because… this is just a ride.’ And we kill those people.

‘Shut him up! We have a lot invested in this ride! Shut him up! Look at my furrows of worry; look at my big bank account, and my family. This has to be real.’ It’s just a ride. But we always kill those good guys who try and tell us that — ever notice that? — and we let the demons run amok. But it doesn’t matter, because… it’s just a ride, and we can change it any time we want. It’s only a choice. No effort. No worry. No job. No savings and money. Just a choice, right now, between fear and love. The eyes of fear want you to put bigger locks on your door, buy bigger guns, close yourself off. The eyes of love, instead, see all of us as one.

Here’s what we can do to change the world, right now, into a better ride. Take all that money we spend on weapons and defense each year and, instead, spend it feeding, clothing and educating the poor of the world, which it would do many times over — not one human being excluded — and we can explore space together, both inner and outer, forever. In peace.

 

My Rhythm

Finally hit a wall and needed to take my first weekend off in 2018, 6 weeks in.

When you are chasing multi-dimensional greatness you run on a different rhythm.

Aside from a few extended periods of depression, where I needed to shut everything down and do deeper cleansing and integration work, I’ve been pushing myself to exhaustion in this rhythm since I turned 13.

Study the greats.

Take inspiration from the greats.

Live your soul’s unique expression of greatness.

Elon Musk

Work like hell. I mean you just have to put in 80 to 100 hour weeks every week. If other people are putting in 40 hour workweeks and you’re putting in 100 hour workweeks, you know that you will achieve in four months what it takes them a year to achieve.

Kobe Bryant

If your job is to be the best basketball player you can be, to do that you have to practice and train, you have train as much as you can, as often as you can. So if you get up at 10 in the morning, train at 12, train for 2 hours, 12-2, you have to let your body recover, so you eat and recover, you get back out and train from 6-8 and then you go home, eat, shower, go to bed do it again. Those are 2 sessions. Imagine you wake up at 3, train 4-6am, eat breakfast, relax, go back at it 9 to 11, then you’re back at it again 2-4, then back at again 7-9…look at how much more training I’ve done by starting at 4am. You do that as the years go on, the separation you have with your competitors and your peers, just grows larger and larger and by years 5 to 6, it doesn’t matter what type of work they’re doing in the summer, they’re never going to catch up, because they’re 5 years behind.

Will Smith

I’ve never really viewed myself as particularly talented. I’ve viewed myself as slightly above average in talent. And where I excel is ridiculous, sickening, work ethic. You know, while the other guy’s sleeping? I’m working. While the other guy’s eatin’? I’m working. While the other guy’s making love, I mean, I’m making love, too. But I’m working really hard at it.

Drake

Yeah uh, look, fuck all that happy to be here shit that y’all want me on
I’m the big homie, they still be tryna lil’ bro me dog
Like I should fall in line, like I should alert niggas
When I’m ’bout to drop somethin’ crazy and I say I’m the greatest of my generation
Like I should be dressin’ different
Like I should be less aggressive and pessimistic
Like I should be way more nervous and less dismissive
Like I should be on my best behavior
And not talk my shit and do it major like the niggas who paved the way for us
Like I didn’t study the game to the letter
And understand that I’m not doin’ it the same, man, I’m doin’ it better
Like I didn’t make that clearer this year
Like I should feel, I don’t know, guilty for saying that
They should put a couple more mirrors in here so I can stare at myself
These are usually just some thoughts that I would share with myself
But I thought “Fuck it”.