The Problem With Mindfulness Meditation

Mindfulness meditation can often do more harm than good.

It is often done with the desire for relaxation and stress reduction.

The problem with that is those intentions reinforce ego identification rather than dissolve it.

The point of meditation is attaining awakening and enlightenment – to liberate yourself from suffering and attachment, and purifying yourself so that you may be of most service to all sentient beings.

Reality Is Like A Video Game

Reality is like a video game, and Tibetan Buddhism has some of the best cheat codes.

Only the cheat codes aren’t cheating: they open up the real game.

Almost all else was just preparatory side games.

Like a psychedelic trip, revealing revelatory unseen elements of reality, always just beneath the surface.


Most people’s desire to become a better person is WEAK.

It’s a passing wish. It’s a should. It’s not a must.

“In life you don’t get your shoulds, you get your musts.” – Tony Robbins

How much of a better person are you this year than last year?

Somebody needs to tell you:


Pick up the pace.

Work harder on yourself.

Quit making excuses.

This is my Crazy Wisdom.

You need to Increase Your Bodhicitta.

“You don’t want it bad enough. You just kind of want it” – Eric Thomas

Post-Modern Spirituality is Coddling you into Marginal Incrementalism.

Vajrayana = Accelerated Vehicle

The Singularity is Near

The World is Accelerating Faster than when Vajrayana was conceived

You need an Accelerated Accelerated Vehicle

There is not much time left

Accelerate Your Awakening

Cultivate Your Bodhicitta till it Burns Inside You

“Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light. “ – Dylan Thomas

Crazy Wisdom loves the Wrathful Deity

Someone needs to Rip off Illusion’s head in the Name of the Truth

Here’s to the Crazy Ones

Here’s to Forging Your Soul in the Cauldron of Desire’s Fire

Burning Luminously Lighter

Bringing the World’s Vibration Higher

Living like you Fucking Matter

Like you’re running out of breath

Like it’s Fucking Dire

Quit being so lame

Does my intensity trigger your ire?


Your Anger is Your Shadow Being an Ignorant Liar.

Time to the Pay the Pied Piper

Where’s your Fucking Fire?

Napoleon Hill the Father of Self-Development knew from talking to all the world’s most successful

That the foundation of evolutionary progress is Burning Desire

Analyzing & Integrating Diverse Psychological Models

The following is a semi-long post that covers topics like: What I’ve Been Reading, Attachment Theory, Enneagram, Meditation, and the differing relationship between the Ego in Meditation in the East vs the West.


I primarily listen to audiobooks rather than read books because most of the time when I have full focus I prefer to be creating rather than consuming.

The last audiobook I listened to was Art of Learning by Josh Waitzkin. It was great for what it is, though I also have some critiques and more thorough commentary.

Now I’m listening to Your Brain on Love by Stan Tatkin on the recommendation from Mikyö Clark.

I’m 20% in so far I like it though have a few critiques as well.

The book is basically about the neurobiology and neurochemistry of Love and its confluence with Attachment Theory described in a very accessible way for a lay person.

I’ve never really gotten into Attachment Theory but a lot of my friends are very into it, so this is a good way for me to go deeper.

Attachment Theory has three core styles Insecure: Avoidant, Insecure: Anxious and Secure.

Stan nicknames these types the Island, the Wave and the Anchor respectively.

Now I’m just getting to the section where he overlays those types with a polarity describing the excitability of someone’s nervous system nicknamed Airplane and Submarine.

My main normative recommendations so far:

1 – I keep seeing Personality models like Enneagram and Jungian Typology as being confounding variables in the explanatory model of Attachment Theory. It doesn’t make sense to make predictive therapeutic recommendations from just the Attachment Theory model without it’s confluent interaction with a finely detailed personality model like Enneagram. If only because Enneagram is primarily Nature based and Attachment Theory is primarily Nurture based and any good model needs to take both into account. In my ideal world someone would use the construct of Enneagram type X Attachment style as buckets in their experimental design and interpretation and I think the data would make much more sense.

2a – He indicated that no attachment style is better than another. They’re all equally good. I think this may because he’s also made no mention that attachment style can change over time

2b – I believe one should strive to do the psychology and spiritual work to become securely attached. One of the meditation lineages I’m in is actually doing a lot of interesting work to integrate Psychotherapy and Meditation. And they have developed a number of powerful meditations to rewrite one’s relationship to their parental figures and their parental orientation to reality, which is what codes one attachment style. And thus make one’s attachment style changeable and progress-able.

I posted about a meditation retreat last month led by John Churchill and Dustin DiPerna where they led some of these type of attachment theory style meditations throughout the weekend.

The integration of Psychotherapy and Meditation is actually a pretty huge spiritual innovation.
As Spiritual Meditation is designed to trigger ego-transcendent experiences. Yet most Westerners have problems with egos. And there are lot of problems that arise when one has ego-transcendent experiences before they do sufficient clean up work on their ego. Interestingly, this wasn’t historically a problem since most Contemplative Traditions came from the East where most people’s Egos didn’t really reach an Autonomous, Individuated Stage so this wasn’t a problem. This is why you also need a Developmental Psychological Lens. But now the territory is getting really complex, because humans are complex and we need complex maps to make good descriptions and recommendations for humans…and overall I’m finding Your Brain on Love a bit too simplistic so far, hoping the model continues to evolve, but a good primer nonetheless.

All for now. Hope I didn’t bore you, though probably only the hard core psych stuck around for all of this one anywaysmile emoticon

My Introductory Guided Meditation: Buddhist Concentration and Awareness Meditation 

This summer one of my meditation teachers empowered me to start leading guided meditations.

Here is the first one I lead and recorded with my dear friend Mari Sierra at the end of August.

The first part of the meditation is focused on Concentration, the second part is focused on Awareness, in the third part we do a little advanced Generation style practice and then close with some Q&A.

Let me know if you have any questions.


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Without Stable Meditative Access to Ego Transcendence Your Life is a Lie

If you have not experienced Significant Breakthroughs in Meditation where you have seen the self as an Object rather than a Subject, and engaged with it as an Empty Construction, then in a very literal sense You are a Prisoner of your own Mind.

And like a criminal trapped in Scarcity and Enslavement, You are not close to having the fundamental foundation of Trustability.

If my words don’t point you to a direct felt experience where you know exactly what I’m talking about, where you can identify a pivotal experience where You “Crossed Over” from self as Subject to self as Object, and furthermore can identify this “crossing over” on a moment to moment basis daily…

Then you have WORK TO DO.

Find a Path.

Find a Practice.

Find a Teacher.

Cultivate Commitment.

Get to Work.

Your Life Depends on it.

Because until you’ve had the “Crossing Over” experience a significant portion of your Life is a Lie.

If you want recommendations or guidance, feel free to ask me.

I am here to serve.

We all have masculine and feminine energies within us to different degrees.The feminine grows through praise, the masculine grows through critical challenge. This post is targeted at the masculine within.

Vipassana’s Inferiority

For better or worse Vipassana is the most popular form of meditation retreat right now.

Vipassana is mostly First Turning of the Wheel Dharma with a little bit of Second sometimes mixed in.

It’s kind of like running the Blackberry OS instead of the iOS on an iPhone.

If you’ve done Vipassana and it’s not resonating as a deeply as you know a meditative path could for you, your soul may be ready for a different path, later in the genealogical evolution of Dharma.

I recently came across this post from a friend of mine. It’s solid.

I’ve personally done Dan Brown’s level 1 retreat and work closely with teachers in his Tibetan lineage.

I highly recommend it.