We’re talking about ENERGY!!

Here’s the Critical Context you need to know:

Do not attempt this practice yourself unless you have Stabilized Emptiness and a Teacher who has confirmed you have sufficient Mastery…

And even that is only one of many Prerequisites.

I’m merely showing you what’s possible.

Most meditation paths are flaccid like a limp dick.

Asceticism is definitely not a 21st century Leading Edge.

However, celibacy is useful for those with sexual fixations.

I’m concerned about the all the Tantrikas in the New Age community out there practicing Tantra divorced from sacred Tibetan Buddhist or Vedic Tantric tradition and lineage.

Practicing the sexual frequencies of Tantra without Stabilizing Awakening will send your Spiritual Progress Backwards for Years.

True Tantra must be the Union of Form and Formlessness.

If you want to walk the path of True Tantra you must Cultivate Bodhicitta otherwise if you try to access this Energy for your own Selfish Gain, you will be Attacked by Energies in the Subtle Realm like this year’s Suicidal Effigy at Burning Man.

Heed this warning. This is not theory. I have friends who have been hit with Mania, Strokes and Physical Injury.

“Bodhicitta is a spontaneous wish to attain enlightenment motivated by great compassion for all sentient beings, accompanied by a falling away of the attachment to the illusion of an inherently existing self.”

*The demons I was referring to are also called Dharma Protectors or Wrathful Deities.

Ultimately, you want to be an Empty Vessel free of Energetic Content, with the Capacity to Access whatever Energy is called for in the Moment based on Intention and Higher Will.



Two days ago I wrote a post about my concern about how retail investors are investing in cryptocurrency and recommended the option market as an alternative for those looking for a very aggressive risk/reward return profile. (https://www.facebook.com/maxhmarmer/posts/10211728883231644)

I mentioned NVDA LEAPS as a historical play that 10x’d the gains of Ethereum over a similar time frame.

Little did I know how prescient a call that would be.

As an example of the crazy returns one can get in the option market, yesterday I spotted the combination of a technical + fundamental set up I loved in NVDA and made one of my most highly concentrated option bets I’ve made to date.

I make concentrated bets like this extremely rarely. for what it’s worth—I’ve executed a concentrated trade like this maybe only 2-3 times since I started trading.

The trade was that I bought 15 call options at the 170 ‘at the money’ strike price with a 1 month October expiration for about $11,000.

Today NVDA was catalyzed by a fortuitous analyst upgrade with high price target and the stock rocketed up over 6%, making me over $10,000 within 24 hours.

However, the fact that the analyst upgrade happened today to light the powder keg on Nvidia was mostly luck, or perhaps an intuitive gift. My expectations were more along the lines of a 2-3% gain over the next couple of trading sessions. But the market game is probabilistic and all about tilting the odds in your favor. A landed missile from North Korea in Japan last night could have catalyzed the market in the other direction.

I can explain more about the technical + fundamental analysis that led to pulling the trigger on this big bet for those interested.

Before going further, I must say, these option trading strategies are not for the faint of heart. But neither is trading highly volatile cryptocurrencies.

Many option trades go to zero. And I’ve had days where I’ve been down over $10,000 too.

Despite this volatility I’m currently nearly 5x’ing the nasdaq, up about 40% while the nasdaq is up about 8% since late April.

At the same time I’m prepared to lose it all. I put significant intention into maintaining non-attachment to my results and mentally preparing myself for enduring considerable negative returns which paradoxically often improves my performance.

Even this NVDA trade went the wrong way on me soon after I made it. I was up $1k an hour after making it but by the end of the day I was down $2k. But I rode it out and didn’t panic and woke up to the returns from the analyst’s gift this morning.

Some more context on my strategy:

In June, I transitioned to a near pure long/short option portfolio because I became confident in my abilities to read the market, I’m young and thus can take a hyper-aggressive risk/reward profile, and I’m investing under a year’s worth of income — so should something go catastrophically wrong, it would not be too hard to make it back. For others, I often recommend some subset of their investable assets being in a high growth option portfolio.)

Investing is a psychological game as much as it is a strategic and tactical game. My proficiency as a meditator is an amazing asset.

Ray Dalio, who is considered the most successful hedge fund manager of all time has been practicing Transcendental Meditation for more than 40 years. He said,

“When I look back at my life, I am happy to have had what most people would consider a successful life, not only in terms of business, but in my relationships and in lots of ways. More than anything else, I attribute it to meditation—partially because of the creativity, partly because of the centeredness. TM has given me an ability to put things in perspective, which has helped a lot. I think meditation has been the single biggest influence on my life.”

There are more great insights from this article on Ray Dalio about how meditation can give you super powers ( https://finance.yahoo.com/news/ray-dalio-featured-in-dr-normal-rosenthal-book-super-mind-152727852.html)

Screenshots attached from my options portfolio(s) in two different brokerages.

I expect to be writing more about finance, economics, crypto and tech trends in the coming weeks and months as it aligns with some bigger picture life-mission projects currently manifesting in my world.

Over and out.

The Problem With Mindfulness Meditation

Mindfulness meditation can often do more harm than good.

It is often done with the desire for relaxation and stress reduction.

The problem with that is those intentions reinforce ego identification rather than dissolve it.

The point of meditation is attaining awakening and enlightenment – to liberate yourself from suffering and attachment, and purifying yourself so that you may be of most service to all sentient beings.

Reality Is Like A Video Game

Reality is like a video game, and Tibetan Buddhism has some of the best cheat codes.

Only the cheat codes aren’t cheating: they open up the real game.

Almost all else was just preparatory side games.

Like a psychedelic trip, revealing revelatory unseen elements of reality, always just beneath the surface.


Most people’s desire to become a better person is WEAK.

It’s a passing wish. It’s a should. It’s not a must.

“In life you don’t get your shoulds, you get your musts.” – Tony Robbins

How much of a better person are you this year than last year?

Somebody needs to tell you:


Pick up the pace.

Work harder on yourself.

Quit making excuses.

This is my Crazy Wisdom.

You need to Increase Your Bodhicitta.

“You don’t want it bad enough. You just kind of want it” – Eric Thomas

Post-Modern Spirituality is Coddling you into Marginal Incrementalism.

Vajrayana = Accelerated Vehicle

The Singularity is Near

The World is Accelerating Faster than when Vajrayana was conceived

You need an Accelerated Accelerated Vehicle

There is not much time left

Accelerate Your Awakening

Cultivate Your Bodhicitta till it Burns Inside You

“Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light. “ – Dylan Thomas

Crazy Wisdom loves the Wrathful Deity

Someone needs to Rip off Illusion’s head in the Name of the Truth

Here’s to the Crazy Ones

Here’s to Forging Your Soul in the Cauldron of Desire’s Fire

Burning Luminously Lighter

Bringing the World’s Vibration Higher

Living like you Fucking Matter

Like you’re running out of breath

Like it’s Fucking Dire

Quit being so lame

Does my intensity trigger your ire?


Your Anger is Your Shadow Being an Ignorant Liar.

Time to the Pay the Pied Piper

Where’s your Fucking Fire?

Napoleon Hill the Father of Self-Development knew from talking to all the world’s most successful

That the foundation of evolutionary progress is Burning Desire

Analyzing & Integrating Diverse Psychological Models

The following is a semi-long post that covers topics like: What I’ve Been Reading, Attachment Theory, Enneagram, Meditation, and the differing relationship between the Ego in Meditation in the East vs the West.


I primarily listen to audiobooks rather than read books because most of the time when I have full focus I prefer to be creating rather than consuming.

The last audiobook I listened to was Art of Learning by Josh Waitzkin. It was great for what it is, though I also have some critiques and more thorough commentary.

Now I’m listening to Your Brain on Love by Stan Tatkin on the recommendation from Mikyö Clark.

I’m 20% in so far I like it though have a few critiques as well.

The book is basically about the neurobiology and neurochemistry of Love and its confluence with Attachment Theory described in a very accessible way for a lay person.

I’ve never really gotten into Attachment Theory but a lot of my friends are very into it, so this is a good way for me to go deeper.

Attachment Theory has three core styles Insecure: Avoidant, Insecure: Anxious and Secure.

Stan nicknames these types the Island, the Wave and the Anchor respectively.

Now I’m just getting to the section where he overlays those types with a polarity describing the excitability of someone’s nervous system nicknamed Airplane and Submarine.

My main normative recommendations so far:

1 – I keep seeing Personality models like Enneagram and Jungian Typology as being confounding variables in the explanatory model of Attachment Theory. It doesn’t make sense to make predictive therapeutic recommendations from just the Attachment Theory model without it’s confluent interaction with a finely detailed personality model like Enneagram. If only because Enneagram is primarily Nature based and Attachment Theory is primarily Nurture based and any good model needs to take both into account. In my ideal world someone would use the construct of Enneagram type X Attachment style as buckets in their experimental design and interpretation and I think the data would make much more sense.

2a – He indicated that no attachment style is better than another. They’re all equally good. I think this may because he’s also made no mention that attachment style can change over time

2b – I believe one should strive to do the psychology and spiritual work to become securely attached. One of the meditation lineages I’m in http://www.pointingoutway.org/ is actually doing a lot of interesting work to integrate Psychotherapy and Meditation. And they have developed a number of powerful meditations to rewrite one’s relationship to their parental figures and their parental orientation to reality, which is what codes one attachment style. And thus make one’s attachment style changeable and progress-able.

I posted about a meditation retreat last month led by John Churchill and Dustin DiPerna where they led some of these type of attachment theory style meditations throughout the weekend.

The integration of Psychotherapy and Meditation is actually a pretty huge spiritual innovation.
As Spiritual Meditation is designed to trigger ego-transcendent experiences. Yet most Westerners have problems with egos. And there are lot of problems that arise when one has ego-transcendent experiences before they do sufficient clean up work on their ego. Interestingly, this wasn’t historically a problem since most Contemplative Traditions came from the East where most people’s Egos didn’t really reach an Autonomous, Individuated Stage so this wasn’t a problem. This is why you also need a Developmental Psychological Lens. But now the territory is getting really complex, because humans are complex and we need complex maps to make good descriptions and recommendations for humans…and overall I’m finding Your Brain on Love a bit too simplistic so far, hoping the model continues to evolve, but a good primer nonetheless.

All for now. Hope I didn’t bore you, though probably only the hard core psych stuck around for all of this one anywaysmile emoticon

My Introductory Guided Meditation: Buddhist Concentration and Awareness Meditation 

This summer one of my meditation teachers empowered me to start leading guided meditations.

Here is the first one I lead and recorded with my dear friend Mari Sierra at the end of August.

The first part of the meditation is focused on Concentration, the second part is focused on Awareness, in the third part we do a little advanced Generation style practice and then close with some Q&A.

Let me know if you have any questions.


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