On Getting Back Up

 

Life inevitably has ups and downs.

When I was knocked down hard in the past, I stayed down for longer than I needed, because in going all in and coming up short, I didn’t emotionally, mentally and spiritually prepare well enough for the losses and failures.

The pain, disappointment and devastation hit me harder than I was expecting. 

Add to that, I was curious about the dark. A part of me wanted to know after efforting so much to chase after my mission and purpose since the ripe age of 13, swimming upstream stroke after stroke, overcoming obstacles and resistances day after day, what would happen if I just let all my pushing go and let the river of darkness pick me up off my feet and take me downstream?

Last year my cycles of initiation were completed. The curiosity satiated. The lies of depression understood. The psychological brush fires painfully burning away all false attachments, to reveal only the indestructible core of my essence.

Showing me there is literally nothing to fear. Allowing me to journey forth with boundless freedom, unshakeable confidence and inexhaustible enthusiasm.

An Absolute Truth containing all the energetic undulance of the universe’s inevitable pulsations of expansion and contraction.

On Putting My Energy into My Journey

One of the biggest misunderstandings about my social media presence comes from the many people who think I am trying to signal I’m better than everyone else for some kind of narcissistic grandeur.

No, I am intending to signal that we all can become our best selves through hard work and putting our life energy in the areas that bring the most results.

If you think I’m a narcissist, that’s a projection from your own shadow and lack of conviction in your own true self worth.

I am sharing my own authentic journey thru the highs and lows to find those on aligned journeys and inspire and guide others who are ready to take the plunge into the unknown of their own Hero’s Journey.

I believe everyone inside themselves has the blueprint for their own manifest Hero’s Journey and unmanifest journey of Self-Realization.

It’s just a matter of whether people are willing to confront their fears and doubts and Heed the Call.

Life isn’t meant to be about the construction of small worlds of complacent safety and comfort.

Life is meant to be an Adventure.

Through the Outer Planes of Jungles, Mountains and Cities and the Inner Planes of Consciousness.

My Rhythm

Finally hit a wall and needed to take my first weekend off in 2018, 6 weeks in.

When you are chasing multi-dimensional greatness you run on a different rhythm.

Aside from a few extended periods of depression, where I needed to shut everything down and do deeper cleansing and integration work, I’ve been pushing myself to exhaustion in this rhythm since I turned 13.

Study the greats.

Take inspiration from the greats.

Live your soul’s unique expression of greatness.

Elon Musk

Work like hell. I mean you just have to put in 80 to 100 hour weeks every week. If other people are putting in 40 hour workweeks and you’re putting in 100 hour workweeks, you know that you will achieve in four months what it takes them a year to achieve.

Kobe Bryant

If your job is to be the best basketball player you can be, to do that you have to practice and train, you have train as much as you can, as often as you can. So if you get up at 10 in the morning, train at 12, train for 2 hours, 12-2, you have to let your body recover, so you eat and recover, you get back out and train from 6-8 and then you go home, eat, shower, go to bed do it again. Those are 2 sessions. Imagine you wake up at 3, train 4-6am, eat breakfast, relax, go back at it 9 to 11, then you’re back at it again 2-4, then back at again 7-9…look at how much more training I’ve done by starting at 4am. You do that as the years go on, the separation you have with your competitors and your peers, just grows larger and larger and by years 5 to 6, it doesn’t matter what type of work they’re doing in the summer, they’re never going to catch up, because they’re 5 years behind.

Will Smith

I’ve never really viewed myself as particularly talented. I’ve viewed myself as slightly above average in talent. And where I excel is ridiculous, sickening, work ethic. You know, while the other guy’s sleeping? I’m working. While the other guy’s eatin’? I’m working. While the other guy’s making love, I mean, I’m making love, too. But I’m working really hard at it.

Drake

Yeah uh, look, fuck all that happy to be here shit that y’all want me on
I’m the big homie, they still be tryna lil’ bro me dog
Like I should fall in line, like I should alert niggas
When I’m ’bout to drop somethin’ crazy and I say I’m the greatest of my generation
Like I should be dressin’ different
Like I should be less aggressive and pessimistic
Like I should be way more nervous and less dismissive
Like I should be on my best behavior
And not talk my shit and do it major like the niggas who paved the way for us
Like I didn’t study the game to the letter
And understand that I’m not doin’ it the same, man, I’m doin’ it better
Like I didn’t make that clearer this year
Like I should feel, I don’t know, guilty for saying that
They should put a couple more mirrors in here so I can stare at myself
These are usually just some thoughts that I would share with myself
But I thought “Fuck it”.

Pithy Post Potpourri – Winter/Spring 2018

If you and your partner(s) can’t both reliably access a state of awakened awareness beyond the ordinary sense of self then any exploration of non-monogamy will inevitably lead to an increase in pain and suffering.

#PsychographicEntryCriteria

When you lose your cool, when you get triggered do you tell yourself to raise your game and live up to a higher standard?

Or do you justify why it was okay to lose your cool and ascribe fault to other people and external circumstances?

This is one of the key regular decisions that separates the extraordinary humans from the ordinary.

I love my morning meditation view so much.

There is a reason yogis go to the mountaintop.

The sparkling, harmonious, blissful, spacious, luminous nature of reality is unassailably clear.

People who don’t utilize the tool of debt and credit in their life have been afflicted by a false sense of lack.

They lack sufficient belief in themselves.

And they lack a willingness to invest in themselves for the long run and to bet on themselves.

The question for analyzing whether debt and credit is worth utilizing is very simple:

Can you create more value, faster with the money you are loaned than the interest rate you are given?

One of the worst decisions the masculine can make is to seek comfort.

The masculine grows through setting big goals, pushing to exhaustion and then savoring accomplishment in the recovery phase before setting a new bigger goal that lies beyond the new expanded comfort zone.

From the higher perspective there is no such thing as rejection.

There is just energy jostling around trying to find its way into proper alignment.

From the higher perspective there is no such thing as failure.

There is just feedback about what needs to be improved and recalibrated.

Black Panther was so much better than the Last Jedi.

Plot and Story Arc.

Character Development & Consistency.

Visual Effects.

Empowering portrayal of Cultural Minorities.

…the script for Luke Skywalker was particularly terrible…acting like someone who was never a Jedi

…so many of the Star Wars characters felt like forced affirmative action plays rather than authentic casting.

…One disappointing feature of the Wakandan’s was that for being so technologically and culturally advanced in many dimensions, they still had an Ethnocentric Worldview when looking to the outside world, opining about how to help downtrodden and oppressed blacks around the world rather than how to help downtrodden and oppressed humans with their technological prowess.

All for now. No time to be a detailed movie critic.

I am currently reading the Life Divine by Sri Aurobindo.

Who else has read it?

My personal website is titled In Quest of Super Humanity and I’m coming to see how my intuitive guidance has been (previously unbeknownst to me) plugged into the same source as Aurobindo’s, especially with respect to his articulation of the Supermind and its Divine Unfolding through Humanity’s Involutionary Process.

Your body is an instrument that the Consciousness of your Soul learns to play.

An Evolved Soul is therefore a masterful musician.

Back on my own again and restarting my cooking skills after 2 years of dormancy.

Immediately noticing a shift in my relationship to food preparation as I’ve deepened my relationship to the fundamentally universal nature of subtle energy in all things.

Succinct infographic of a lot of misguided class warfare and anti-wealth sentiment from the Liberal Left.

 

Today Was a Good Day

My new company TrueSelf rolled out registration for our first online course — The Personality Advantage System (based on the Enneagram).

And I ripped off a $26,000 / 20+% total day gain in my options portfolio, with the biggest winners being recently made heavily concentrated bets in Lam Research and Micron.

I made these concentrated bets in these 2 companies on the basis of the stock market being short term #overbought but still rallying and those tech stocks still under participating in the recent rally, in part due to analysts underestimating the Tech Semiconductor Supercycle that is currently underway with trends in: Self-Driving Cars, Big Data, Data Centers, AI/Machine Learning, Cryptomining, Internet of Things and More.

I continue to be surprised about how low the ratio is amongst my friends of capital invested in crypto vs stocks (or any other asset class for that matter).

There is just as big a killing to be made in the stock market as the crypto market if you know how to use options for leverage.

Investing in crypto is just being an angel investor in early stage tech products. And it’s not very smart to be so concentrated in one sub-sector of tech (crypto) at one very early stage of maturity (mostly 100M -$10B with most projects being super risky with no revenue).

For long term financial performance it’s critical to exercise proper diversification across many variables:

• Company Maturity — invest in mature tech companies with billions of dollars in revenue that are changing the world, not just speculative crypto-startups with nearly 0 in revenue.

• Multiple sectors and asset classes (especially if you’re nearing 40)

• Asset allocation of your investments that properly reflects your desired risk profile. And if you pick a hyper-aggressive profile like putting more than 10% of your investable assets in crypto make sure you can stomach the volatility of the return profile. Higher returns almost always entail higher volatility. i.e. don’t buy high and sell low because you aren’t willing to ride out the downs.

One benefit of non-correlated asset allocation is the ability to rotate capital to the largest opportunities.

Due to my asset allocation of 80-90% stocks and options, and 10-20% crypto, I’m now booking some gains in the stock market with the indexes near the top end of their range and rotating at least $5k into crypto with the market near the bottom end of its range.

I’ve gained a ton of benefit from the crypto facebook group I’m in with a number of friends who regularly share knowledge, advice, links, tips and tricks and so now I’m creating an analogous group for people interested in investing and trading the stock market.

Let me know if you’d like me to add you.

An Update

I’ve been working 12-14 hours a day since the start of the new year with no days off to get my new company TrueSelf off the ground.

All that despite a rough common cold I picked up from the New Years all-nighter.

I just draw on Michael Jordan’s infamous flu game for inspiration.

We’re getting very close to releasing a lot of work that’s been in the pipeline.

An Online Class entitled the Personality Advantage System: Introductory Course will be coming out next week.

Essentially, it is an introduction to the 9 Types of the Enneagram.

My co-founders Katherine Fauvre and Nick Connor will be doing a Live Q&A about the Intro Course on Tuesday at 2pm live on FB, as well as on Zoom.

Our free personality test is also almost done, which will assess your Primary Enneagram Type, Tritype and Instinctual stacking, with far more accuracy than any other Enneagram test ever made.

A lot of love, blood, sweat and tears has gone into this over the last few months — and the many decades of work members of our team have put in that lead up to this.

Master Classes, Brand Identity, Coaching Programs, and full-featured web applications coming soon after.

Stay tuned.

A Thanksgiving Reflection on My Life’s Journey

Today on Thanksgiving 2017, I head to Costa Rica for a 10 day vacation.

And I’m feeling grateful for all the blessings in my life.

In 2009, I remember this particular peak moment laying in the spa, after attending a 2 month immersion program in Berlin for 30 digital natives under 30 called Palomar 5.

I was on my gap year just after graduating high school 5 months earlier, and I’d been pushing hard for a few years to break free of the guardrails of the conventional life path and trail blaze my own entrepreneurial one.

While I was laying on my back immersed in the warm salt water, I remember a voice coming into my head that whispered, ‘your life is now exactly where it should be’. And a sense of inner peace, calmness and settledness washed over my soul.

Through hard work, courage and good fortune, I largely stayed on top of that wave for the next year and half, through the successful launch and emergence of the Startup Genome Project in 2011.

I had my physical and mental health. I had my purpose. I was growing and developing the organizational structure to share my gifts and vision with the world.

Then at the end of 2011, as I was galloping along like a white knight on his horse, an ambushing barrage of arrows blindsided me in the form of a soured former business partner, lawsuits, delayed fundraising timelines, going broke, getting burned out, losing physical and mental health in the burnout, diverging visions with my co-founders, multi-factor autoimmune illnesses, being forced out of my company, more lawsuits, autoimmune relapses that cut even deeper into my physical and mental health and fortitude.

The ensuing 5-6 years brought many ups and downs, many growth experiences, many multi-dimensional personal and inter-personal deepening.

But there was still this nagging feeling that my life wasn’t exactly where it should be, like it had been before. I felt like I was chasing my destiny, to catch back up with it.

It was like my Destiny was my horse from the time of the ambush, still running wild and free down a different timeline, continuing to trail blaze the path my self in this timeline could sense and one day catch up to.

Today, I’m grateful to say, I have caught up to my Destiny’s Horse, jumped back in the saddle and we’ve now been stably galloping through new lands for enough time that it now feels like the new norm.

Back in 2009, at Palomar 5, as I was getting to know my ‘campmates’ my friend Kosta Grammatis poignantly noted when I was still at the tender age of 19, ‘what’s interesting about you is that you’re so young but you feel like you should have already succeeded yesterday’.

This was more true than he knew.

I carried my ambition around in my life like giant jet pack of potential energy.

If I could unlock and master the gift on my back I could fly. I could soar.

But when I was weak, lost or confused, I felt crushed by the weight of it.

Kosmocentric Burden I called it.

My ambition wasn’t for self-validation.

I was born sitting on top of a metaphorical mountain, where I could see humanity’s vast potential for creation and for destruction. A world with both heavenly and hellish timelines.

And I could see what needed to be built to magnetize humanity towards the magnificently beautiful ones.

I could feel the capacity burning within inside me to bring this world into existence.

This was my hero’s journey.

It still is.

In a Campellian sense for these last 5-6 years, I felt stuck in my Road of Trials for what felt like an Inescapable Eternity. Even more so in the fog of multiple depressions.

Now I am through.

My younger self wanted to be here much quicker.

That it took much longer, was it because of failed tests or Destiny?

I’m not sure, but I now lean more towards the latter.

There are many paths up the mountain. And there pros and cons to any path.

I wanted to by farther along in my career and work goals by 27, but I have learned virtue of patience.

I have been molded by the stillness.

I have learned to love life out of the public spotlight before I’m thrust into it.

I wanted my training periods to be over sooner. To enter the field of battle and showcase the fruits of my training to myself and to the world.

But I was too eager.

“More training,” Spirit said.

“More Trials and Tribulations.”

And now my training has molded me now into an unbeatable warrior.

I have been afforded the time to to train longer, train harder, train deeper, train wider. Endure more pain and struggle. Plumb more depths of my shadow.

My struggles gave me more empathy for others struggling. More resilience to call on for the inevitable future slowdowns or down turns.

Now I look at the world’s best in so many fields: technology entrepreneurship, finance, academia, coaching, spirituality — sizing them up like a fighter.

Like Conor McGregor sizes up Jose Aldo, Eddie Alvarez and Tyrone Woodley and I know that I am better than them. That I have the potential to be the best of my generation.

So Today as I sit in LAX on my way to Costa Rica, I’m feeling grateful for so much:

I’m grateful for the opportunity to recharge in a beautiful, luxurious setting after busting my ass working 12-16 hour days for almost 6 months, founding multiple new projects and companies.

I’m grateful for finding the path to apply my understanding of technology trends, complex systems, informational synthesis and behavioral psychology, to expeditiously earn my financial freedom by crushing the stock market with ridiculous returns, with all signs pointing to me only getting better.

I’m grateful for having such magnificent to dreams chase.

I’m grateful for how strong my kosmocentric purpose has made me.

I’m grateful that hard work, engaged in full heartedly day after day, lifetime after lifetime, really does pay off.

I’m grateful for my connection to higher beings with sublime power far beyond my human capacity.

I’m grateful for my 2 year relationship with Tara — our depth, connection, mutual support and healing of my long lived wound of loneliness.

I’m grateful to have such amazing business partners who I share such a deep personal connection with. A mutual knowing that stretches across lifetimes set on a backdrop of unbreakable spiritual involution.

I’m grateful for the unconditional support and love from my family.

I’m grateful for being unburdened by childhood trauma.

I’m grateful for learning the skills early to enable my young adult self to process my young adult trauma and be fully free to offer my gifts to the world.

I’m grateful for all the opportunities I am being given to serve as vessel for radical individual and collective transformation.

I’m grateful for existence itself.

I’m grateful for all the beauty in the world.

The ecstasy and the suffering.

It is all perfect.

For one cannot know light without the dark.

One cannot know bliss without despair.

The journey is perfect.

The user experience is elegant.

And having the opportunity to live as self-transcending emergent oneness is so incredibly sexy.

I’m grateful for my spiritual teachers.

Tapping me into the timeless streams of wisdom in the deepest esoteric parts of Buddhism and Hindu Vedanta lineages.

I’m grateful the One is simultaneously the Many.

I’m grateful I get reconnect with so many souls I’ve shared so many lifetimes of karma with.

I’m grateful we get to be here.

To know each other.

To love each other.

To remember who we really are.

To paint novel evolutionary masterpieces together, sourced from the Groundless Ground of that Bottomless Depth.

PURA VIDA!