God, my alone feels so good, but lately I’ve craving something more, something deeper
I want love
But not just any kind of Love, no,
I want a love so deep it’d make the ocean jealous.
But I’ll only have you if you’re sweeter than my solitude. You must love me for everything I’m worth and then some.
Start with my eyes, look into them like you want to know all the good, bad, and anything beyond. From my eyes go to my mind, love me for everything I know and love me just as much to teach me what I do not.
Hold me in your arms, and love me for everything I am, from my breasts to my thighs, and even the scars that others have left behind
But tell me if you’re not up for it…Not that you don’t want me but rather you can’t handle me.
And please don’t say, “I won’t be like those other dudes and break your heart.”
You see my solitude has always been sweet, and during that time I learned to love myself before I could learn to love anyone else.
Give me the love that I’ve been craving, make the ocean jealous. Fall for my eyes without knowing me just yet
And then kiss me like you want to be loved just as much
Remember that I want to be loved as deep as the ocean, but remember that I am like the ocean
I can slip through your fingers, but manage to hold up an army of ships
Kiss me, hold me, love me, but tell me if you’re not up for it
I’ll only have you if you’re sweeter than my solitude
If you and your partner(s) can’t both reliably access a state of awakened awareness beyond the ordinary sense of self then any exploration of non-monogamy will inevitably lead to an increase in pain and suffering.
When you lose your cool, when you get triggered do you tell yourself to raise your game and live up to a higher standard?
Or do you justify why it was okay to lose your cool and ascribe fault to other people and external circumstances?
This is one of the key regular decisions that separates the extraordinary humans from the ordinary.
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I love my morning meditation view so much.
There is a reason yogis go to the mountaintop.
The sparkling, harmonious, blissful, spacious, luminous nature of reality is unassailably clear.
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People who don’t utilize the tool of debt and credit in their life have been afflicted by a false sense of lack.
They lack sufficient belief in themselves.
And they lack a willingness to invest in themselves for the long run and to bet on themselves.
The question for analyzing whether debt and credit is worth utilizing is very simple:
Can you create more value, faster with the money you are loaned than the interest rate you are given?
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One of the worst decisions the masculine can make is to seek comfort.
The masculine grows through setting big goals, pushing to exhaustion and then savoring accomplishment in the recovery phase before setting a new bigger goal that lies beyond the new expanded comfort zone.
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From the higher perspective there is no such thing as rejection.
There is just energy jostling around trying to find its way into proper alignment.
From the higher perspective there is no such thing as failure.
There is just feedback about what needs to be improved and recalibrated.
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Black Panther was so much better than the Last Jedi.
Plot and Story Arc.
Character Development & Consistency.
Visual Effects.
Empowering portrayal of Cultural Minorities.
…the script for Luke Skywalker was particularly terrible…acting like someone who was never a Jedi
…so many of the Star Wars characters felt like forced affirmative action plays rather than authentic casting.
…One disappointing feature of the Wakandan’s was that for being so technologically and culturally advanced in many dimensions, they still had an Ethnocentric Worldview when looking to the outside world, opining about how to help downtrodden and oppressed blacks around the world rather than how to help downtrodden and oppressed humans with their technological prowess.
All for now. No time to be a detailed movie critic.
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I am currently reading the Life Divine by Sri Aurobindo.
Who else has read it?
My personal website is titled In Quest of Super Humanity and I’m coming to see how my intuitive guidance has been (previously unbeknownst to me) plugged into the same source as Aurobindo’s, especially with respect to his articulation of the Supermind and its Divine Unfolding through Humanity’s Involutionary Process.
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Your body is an instrument that the Consciousness of your Soul learns to play.
An Evolved Soul is therefore a masterful musician.
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Back on my own again and restarting my cooking skills after 2 years of dormancy.
Immediately noticing a shift in my relationship to food preparation as I’ve deepened my relationship to the fundamentally universal nature of subtle energy in all things.
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Succinct infographic of a lot of misguided class warfare and anti-wealth sentiment from the Liberal Left.
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Always remember that how we react to every moment of our life will reinforce either our negative habits or positive habits. No matter how challenging life may be, each moment can be seen as either a problem or an opportunity. If we can understand this, we can start to bring our entire life to the path.
~ Chamtrul Rinpoche
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You might ask, ‟If I have Buddha nature, why can’t I perceive it right now?”
It is because, like gold hidden in its matrix, that nature is hidden by our habits that we have accumulated since beginningless time. These habits have been created by our disturbing emotions and then reinforced by the actions that those disturbances have produced.
~ Shechen Gyaltsab
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The ultimate nature of the mind is empty and without basis. It is intangible like empty space. But this is not a nihilistic view. Self-arisen, primordial consciousness is original, clear consciousness. Self-arisen and self-illuminating, it is like the essence of the sun.
There’s an expression, ‘the moment he learned the word butterfly, he never saw it again’.
We have a tendency to forget to see fresh what we label with words.
Each butterfly is no longer seen as a unique, majestically colored, floating collection of miraculously synchronized particles.
Rather each time we see something moving around with the shape we call ‘butterfly’, we file the object into that mental filing cabinet without a moment of awe, wonder or appreciation.
We live in a prison of our conceptual mental landscape.
We classify all kinds of phenomena into labels and categories we already once defined.
We do this with people, too.
Once people are labeled “a good person or a bad person”, “selfish or selfless”, “intelligent or dumb”, “attractive or unattractive”, “successful or unsuccessful”, “sensitive or insensitive”, we rarely revise our labels.
Information that fits the label is quickly unconsciously tagged and stored. Information that does not is discarded.
Creating the illusion of a far more static, fixed reality, designed to make us feel safe by managing the complexity of this sometimes overwhelming world.
Learning through contemplative practice, to see through the unconscious automaticity of this mental construction process of our reality,
We have the opportunity to pierce the veil,
Experiencing the naked, fresh, continuous novelty of the undifferentiated phenomenological continuum, whose fundamental nature is raw, ultimate light and ultimate sound.
Say to yourself,
“I love myself.”
“I love myself.”
“I love myself.”
Does it feel true?
If not, please share, what is in the way?
And then keep repeating this mantra every day until you melt away all resistance.
Whatever resistance is still stubbornly persistent,
Dissolve it through action.
If you feel too guilty, take action to make amends.
If you feel too angry, offer a letter or words of forgiveness.
If you feel too ashamed, find compassion for yourself and others.
If you have too many negative people in your life tearing you down, raise your standards for who you let have an intimate role in your life.
That you are worthy of love from yourself and others is always true.
Even when you can’t see it.
But when you can,
Your life will Bloom like a Thousand Gardens in the Orchard of the Divine.
So say it to yourself,
“I love myself.”
“I love myself.”
“I love myself.”
Until Universal Truth becomes your Personal Truth.
Intelligence is the measure of the number and quality of distinctions you have in a given situation.
~ Tony Robbins
Intelligence is much less about intellectual horsepower, the speed of thought or the size of memory.
And much more about the quality of your mental models, the explicitness of your mental frameworks and the number of perspectives you can take.
‘Eskimos (Inuit) have over a dozen words for “snow.” Why? Because in their environment, and their culture, they have to if they want to achieve specific outcomes. They need to be able to describe to themselves and each other what kind of snow they can build an igloo out of, what kind of snow they can take their dogs through, what kind of snow they can eat, what kind of snow they are going to fall through…’
Intelligence is contextual.
Intelligence is learned.
Intelligence is earned.
The seeds of a Multi-Dimensional, Multi-Lifetime, Trans-Disciplinary, Consciously Transformational, Multi-Billion Dollar Business Empire have now been given Permission to Sprout.
Major Market and Ideological Disruption coming to a Phase Space near you!
I am its Cocky Humble Servant Gardening its Divine Energetic Expression.
Practice Patience as Destiny Fractally gathers the Life Force to Bloom.
This is a Multi-Decade Plan, not a Flash in the Pan.
Traction is here and I am Merely an Interstellar Point Man.
More Details Soon for How You Can Take Part.
As Conor McGregor, the Notorious One said, ”
[This] is the Law of Attraction, and it is the most powerful thing in the world. It is the belief that you are able to create whatever situation that you want for yourself, and no one can take it from you. It is believing something is already yours, and then doing whatever you have to so that it comes true.
If you can see it here and you have the courage enough to speak it, it will happen. I see these shots and sequences, and I don’t shy away from them. A lot of time people believe in certain things, but they keep it to themselves. They don’t put it out there. If you truly believe in it, if you become vocal with it, you are creating that Law of Attraction, and it will become reality.
This, the way I think and the way my mind goes, it is unstoppable. I can’t tell you exactly what it is, but it fucking works.”
Those people are projecting onto me their unconscious fear of their own lack of psychological control and stability,
Or that of someone close to them.
I probabilistically guarantee it.
I have often explored in many chapters of my life how I relate to this weighty psychological label.
There is no question I have travelled the extremes of the psychological spectrum.
How intimately I know the Higher Highs and the Lower Lows.
There is certainly bipolarity in that.
But am I Bipolar?
No.
Not as the term is conventionally used.
Bipolar is not a mental illness.
Bipolarity is not a curse.
Bipolarity is a gift.
Bipolarity is increased emotional sensitivity to life.
Bipolarity is an incarnational decision to increase one’s risk/reward profile.
Bipolarity is increased access to the Vital Force of Life itself.
Bipolarity connects you more fully to the multi-dimensional energetic fluids of emotionality that serve as Teachers,
Washing over you, if you let them, with the intent to positively transform.
Bipolarity is a powerful weapon that is the source of some of the greatest creativity and expressions of Love and Spirit in Human History.
But it is also a powerful weapon that society is afraid of.
That Industrial Society has been designed to crush.
Like X-Men mutants who the conventional humans fear for their differences.
Conventional Society wants people to conform like Slavish Mechanical Cogs to its Industrial Machine.
Society wants docile employees, who color within the lines, follow the rules and do what they’re told.
There is no room for the hyper-creative who have visions of new possibilities and new lands.
The Status Quo is too fucking profitable.
There is no room for the hyper-sensitive who feel deep in their bones and soul that something in their world is not RIGHT.
Their heightened perception must be numbed.
Must be medicated out of existence.
Their feelings which point them to the Truth of the World and their Heart must be stopped.
They must be made to feel weak.
To feel their feelings are the problem.
Rather than Modern Society.
With its dysfunctional, self-perpetuating trauma-filled, isolationist, disconnected culture that gave rise to the feelings of depression and anxiety in the first place.
One of their Methods of Covert Authoritarianism is the Brutality of the Medical Establishment.
A profiteering, societal racketeering institution built on Biologically Reductionist Science designed to make the patient addicted and societally compliant rather than healthy and fulfilled.
Nearly 20% of Americans take a psychiatric drug for Depression or Anxiety.
On average Americans watch 5 hours of Television a day.
Another subversive method of mind-control to numb people from their Authentic Self.
Industrial Capitalist Society has Humanity by the Balls, Clamped in a Vice.
I have been deeply depressed, but I have never moved from Hypomania to Mania.
I have taken many natural supplements, but I have never taken a pharmacological drug.
And I hope I never do.
If you have, don’t be hard on yourself.
Be compassionate.
But know if you would like to truly find your Higher Self…
It will be very difficult to do while taking pharmacological substances designed to conform you to a narrow band of emotional states.
Pharmacological drugs are best seen as emergency psychic surgery when you take a psycho-spiritual tumble and break a metaphorical bone or bust up your metaphorical tissue…
And they are to be followed by a weaned path of rehabilitation to more authentic biochemistry.
If you are on these substances,
Know there is a way out.
Though it must done with love and care,
And the supervision of qualified medical professionals,
Ideally including ones who practice Holistic Medicine.
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…And now we have begun a series of posts on Depression, Mental Illness & Spiritual Transformation.
I have thousands of words to spill on this subject in which I will cover subjects like:
– Why the medical establishment does not have people’s best interests at heart
– Why the DSM, psychiatry and pharmacology is fatally flawed
– How the lack of a larger spiritual evolutionary context of the human condition is the source of psychological confusion that begets depression and mental illness
– Powerful metaphors for reframing Depression, Anxiety and Bipolarity as the Empowering, Fierce, Creative Gift they are.
– Biohacking with supplements out of Mental Dysfunction into Optimal Health
– The dynamic feedback loops to the downside or upside between Biology, Psychology, Culture and Spirituality
– My personal stories about the excruciating pain and confusion of depressive episodes
– Resilient methods for relating to Suicidal Ideation
– The Nature of Suicide in a larger Existential Context
– How Depression can make you stronger and prepare you to fulfill your Destiny
My close friend Mari Sierra is hosting a retreat next month (Jan 8 -17) for Entrepreneurs & Conscious Creatives in Bali and they have 5 spots left. (www.sierraymar.co/decelerate)
I thought some of my friends may be interested in their program.
The retreat is called Decelerate where the program is structured to support attendees in slowing down so they may find their core essence, their core purpose and energetic alignment with those currents, so that their creative gifts can be unleashed with full force throughout the year.
There will be daily yoga and meditation sessions facilitated by Erica Jago & Mari Sierra (internationally acclaimed designers / yoginis wink emoticon ), group facilitation by Michel Bachmann, and peer explorations and reflections with other like-minded souls in a beautiful setting.
I believe Energy Management is one of the most foundational skills for any Ambitious Creative in the 21st century.
One of the biggest problems I see in how many entrepreneurs and creatives live their lives, is that they believe there is linear relationship between time spent working and work produced.
The reality is that how much we accomplish is much more a function of how much energy we invest in our work and purpose rather than how much time we invest.
While Energy is a finite resource, it’s also a Renewable and Growable Resource.
To meet the demands of the incredibly stimulatory, fast paced 21st century life we must increase our Energetic Capacity.
Deliberately. Continuously. Consistently. Through Years of Practice, Refinement and Commitment to Mastery.
How do you increase Energetic Capacity?
By oscillating between cycles of stress and recovery.
That’s how strength and capacity is built.
In the fast paced, always on world of the 21st century, most people run their stress cycle but neglect the recovery cycle and consequently burn out.
I love Tony Schwartz basic framework, author of one of my favorite books, the Power of Full Engagement, where he describes our energy as coming from 4 core dimensions: Physical, Emotional, Mental and Spiritual.
Where we grow our capacity by developing stress and recovery habits rituals for each dimension.
This is why I work out so hard. This is why I biohack so much. This is why I master my mind through meditation and a myriad of other practices — so I can continue to increase my Energetic Capacity, creating and serving with greater and greater intensity.
Tony Schwartz also encourages people to see their life as a Series of Creative Sprints rather than a Marathon. Take a look at sprinters he says — they look like Lions, Kings of the Jungle…take a look at marathon runners, they look gaunt and on the edge of death.
Why is this?
One process is more aligned with Life’s Natural Cycle of Growth and Energetic Optimization.
Energetic optimization requires consistently asking yourself these two questions:
1) How is my energy?
2) Is my energy being allocated to what’s most important to me, my essence and my purpose?
Because when your energetic capacity and output is high, focused and directed towards the right things you are unstoppable.
So if you haven’t taken time for Recovery recently, I would highly recommend attending Decelerate as a potent opportunity to Realign and Restore your Being.
It may feel like there’s not time to take off for retreat, but what are you optimizing for? The short term or the long term?
From the short term perspective there is never time to Recover.
The Long Term perspective demands it.
And the Long Term process perspective is the only true path to Creative Manifest Greatness.
I would like to balance the sharing of my Warrior Archetype with my Lover Archetype.
Last month My Love Eleanor Tara wrote and recorded a song for me.
Shortly after receiving her Beautiful Musical Transmission of Love, I wanted to reciprocate.
This song by John Legend came to me as the perfect tune to capture my feelings for her.
This was my take two.
It is rough, but I don’t care.
Creativity is fueled by shipping.
Creativity is fueled by faithfully and shamelessly investing in the process.
I used to not sing, as little as a few years ago, because I was told could not carry a tune.
I used to not be able to dance.
I used to not be able to write.
I used to not know how to create a startup.
I used to not know how the world worked.
But I got better by showing up, by deliberately practicing, and putting myself out there, continuously and completely.
“Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take awhile. It’s normal to take awhile. You’ve just gotta fight your way through.” – Ira Glass
Creativity is fueled by Love.
Love for the self you are today
Love for the self you will become
Love for the people your transmission will touch
Rumi famously wrote, ‘You are the Universe in Ecstatic Motion”
Many Integral Philosophers like Ken Wilber, Marc Gafni and Daniel Schmachtenberger have pointed out that the Universe is Erotically Unfolding its Novelty unto Itself to come to know Itself.
I say, Creativity is inextricably connected to the Erotic Love Force that keeps the Universe in Ecstatic Motion.
You are the Universe Experiencing itself.
…More Rumi,“You are not a drop in the ocean. You are the entire ocean in a drop.””
Through the Sharing of Your Creativity, You and the Universe are Simultaneously Loved into The Higher Self
An ever-present, ever-evolving Perfect Imperfect Self.
I’d love to learn a little more music theory as it was hard for me to figure out how to match lyrical flow with the beat with anything other than uniform regularity.
Why did I make this?
It’s cross training for my voice and ego.
Writing, speaking, singing, rapping and putting oneself out there in a variety of formats is great cross training for my impending future.
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Lyrics:
Just so it’s clear, in poetic outlook
I get a lot of shit for how I show up on Facebook
The effect grates on me like I’m preparing to cook
You think I’m talking wrong but it’s not in the good book
The wear and tear is not easy to bear
But I will not quit and send a flare into the air
Because heaven blessed me when I slept in its lair
You’re the slow and steady Tortoise and I’m the boastful Hare
But this time I will not sleep in the middle
I’m too hungry now and your heart is too little
I lapped you in the race and you’re my lovely second fiddle
We’re One Ocean dawg and you’re just a smaller ripple
I will not die a death of a thousand cuts
All y’all come at me and slice me in the gut
Everytime I’m knocked down I keep getting up
You can’t chain me down because I give zero fucks
