On Getting Back Up When I’ve Been Knocked Down

 

Life inevitably has ups and downs.

When I was knocked down hard in the past, I stayed down for longer than I needed, because in going all in and coming up short, I didn’t emotionally, mentally and spiritually prepare well enough for the losses and failures.

The pain, disappointment and devastation hit me harder than I was expecting.

Add to that, I was curious about the dark. A part of me wanted to know after efforting so much to chase after my mission and purpose since the ripe age of 13, swimming upstream stroke after stroke, overcoming obstacles and resistances day after day, what would happen if I just let all my pushing go and let the river of darkness pick me up off my feet and take me downstream?

Last year my cycles of initiation were completed. The curiosity satiated. The lies of depression understood. The psychological brush fires painfully burning away all false attachments, to reveal only the indestructible core of my essence.

Showing me there is literally nothing to fear. Allowing me to journey forth with boundless freedom, unshakeable confidence and inexhaustible enthusiasm.

An Absolute Truth containing all the energetic undulance of the universe’s inevitable pulsations of expansion and contraction.

What Einstein Had to Say About Alignment

Einstein is speaking to proper alignment within the Immanent Holarchy of the Spirit -> Soul -> Personality.

Your agency is your self. Your Body/Mind.

Your True Identity is All of Existence. 

Your Task is to over come the persistent illusory prison that you are your Body/Mind.

Your Process is recognizing all the energetic Self-contractions that manifest as limiting beliefs, unresolved traumas, and negative emotions like fear, uncertainty and doubt that stand between you and Identifying as All of Existence.

It is here where unending Liberation and Positive Flourishing is found.

Do the Problems of the World Make Us Screwed as a Species?

 

Someone in a Private Facebook Group I follow asked me this Question, and I thought I would give my Answer:

“Are we as a Species Fucked ? For real ?

Not to sound gravely pessimistic yet how many dire local and World wide issues are there to even deal with ?

Really what do you think/feel about our overwhelming societal problems ?

If we get down real into the background feeling behind daily doings, does your Being feel we are doomed as a species ?

Candid truth please 🙏🏽

No solutions needed for this post and comments…just your real feeling please 🙏🏽”


Whatever your perspective is:

The world is doomed,

Or, we are living in the best time in human history.

You will find evidence to support your perspective.

My perspective is that we are at the best time in human history, but we are also facing more complex problems than ever before, which can feel overwhelming to many.

But this is how all complex adaptive evolutionary systems work — as they grow and complexify, so do the problems they are confronted with.

These are simply growing pains.

Sometimes complex systems advance to a new level of coherence and sometimes they fail and take a step back, stabilize and then accelerate from that base.

Some dimensions of the world are making the leap to the next level whereas others are self correcting by taking a step back.

There’s enough resiliency in the world system now that I don’t believe we are at risk of existential collapse, although the potential for things to get pretty ugly is there.

My Rhythm

Finally hit a wall and needed to take my first weekend off in 2018, 6 weeks in.

When you are chasing multi-dimensional greatness you run on a different rhythm.

Aside from a few extended periods of depression, where I needed to shut everything down and do deeper cleansing and integration work, I’ve been pushing myself to exhaustion in this rhythm since I turned 13.

Study the greats.

Take inspiration from the greats.

Live your soul’s unique expression of greatness.

Elon Musk

Work like hell. I mean you just have to put in 80 to 100 hour weeks every week. If other people are putting in 40 hour workweeks and you’re putting in 100 hour workweeks, you know that you will achieve in four months what it takes them a year to achieve.

Kobe Bryant

If your job is to be the best basketball player you can be, to do that you have to practice and train, you have train as much as you can, as often as you can. So if you get up at 10 in the morning, train at 12, train for 2 hours, 12-2, you have to let your body recover, so you eat and recover, you get back out and train from 6-8 and then you go home, eat, shower, go to bed do it again. Those are 2 sessions. Imagine you wake up at 3, train 4-6am, eat breakfast, relax, go back at it 9 to 11, then you’re back at it again 2-4, then back at again 7-9…look at how much more training I’ve done by starting at 4am. You do that as the years go on, the separation you have with your competitors and your peers, just grows larger and larger and by years 5 to 6, it doesn’t matter what type of work they’re doing in the summer, they’re never going to catch up, because they’re 5 years behind.

Will Smith

I’ve never really viewed myself as particularly talented. I’ve viewed myself as slightly above average in talent. And where I excel is ridiculous, sickening, work ethic. You know, while the other guy’s sleeping? I’m working. While the other guy’s eatin’? I’m working. While the other guy’s making love, I mean, I’m making love, too. But I’m working really hard at it.

Drake

Yeah uh, look, fuck all that happy to be here shit that y’all want me on
I’m the big homie, they still be tryna lil’ bro me dog
Like I should fall in line, like I should alert niggas
When I’m ’bout to drop somethin’ crazy and I say I’m the greatest of my generation
Like I should be dressin’ different
Like I should be less aggressive and pessimistic
Like I should be way more nervous and less dismissive
Like I should be on my best behavior
And not talk my shit and do it major like the niggas who paved the way for us
Like I didn’t study the game to the letter
And understand that I’m not doin’ it the same, man, I’m doin’ it better
Like I didn’t make that clearer this year
Like I should feel, I don’t know, guilty for saying that
They should put a couple more mirrors in here so I can stare at myself
These are usually just some thoughts that I would share with myself
But I thought “Fuck it”.

Pithy Post Potpourri – Winter/Spring 2018

If you and your partner(s) can’t both reliably access a state of awakened awareness beyond the ordinary sense of self then any exploration of non-monogamy will inevitably lead to an increase in pain and suffering.

#PsychographicEntryCriteria

When you lose your cool, when you get triggered do you tell yourself to raise your game and live up to a higher standard?

Or do you justify why it was okay to lose your cool and ascribe fault to other people and external circumstances?

This is one of the key regular decisions that separates the extraordinary humans from the ordinary.

I love my morning meditation view so much.

There is a reason yogis go to the mountaintop.

The sparkling, harmonious, blissful, spacious, luminous nature of reality is unassailably clear.

People who don’t utilize the tool of debt and credit in their life have been afflicted by a false sense of lack.

They lack sufficient belief in themselves.

And they lack a willingness to invest in themselves for the long run and to bet on themselves.

The question for analyzing whether debt and credit is worth utilizing is very simple:

Can you create more value, faster with the money you are loaned than the interest rate you are given?

One of the worst decisions the masculine can make is to seek comfort.

The masculine grows through setting big goals, pushing to exhaustion and then savoring accomplishment in the recovery phase before setting a new bigger goal that lies beyond the new expanded comfort zone.

From the higher perspective there is no such thing as rejection.

There is just energy jostling around trying to find its way into proper alignment.

From the higher perspective there is no such thing as failure.

There is just feedback about what needs to be improved and recalibrated.

Black Panther was so much better than the Last Jedi.

Plot and Story Arc.

Character Development & Consistency.

Visual Effects.

Empowering portrayal of Cultural Minorities.

…the script for Luke Skywalker was particularly terrible…acting like someone who was never a Jedi

…so many of the Star Wars characters felt like forced affirmative action plays rather than authentic casting.

…One disappointing feature of the Wakandan’s was that for being so technologically and culturally advanced in many dimensions, they still had an Ethnocentric Worldview when looking to the outside world, opining about how to help downtrodden and oppressed blacks around the world rather than how to help downtrodden and oppressed humans with their technological prowess.

All for now. No time to be a detailed movie critic.

I am currently reading the Life Divine by Sri Aurobindo.

Who else has read it?

My personal website is titled In Quest of Super Humanity and I’m coming to see how my intuitive guidance has been (previously unbeknownst to me) plugged into the same source as Aurobindo’s, especially with respect to his articulation of the Supermind and its Divine Unfolding through Humanity’s Involutionary Process.

Your body is an instrument that the Consciousness of your Soul learns to play.

An Evolved Soul is therefore a masterful musician.

Back on my own again and restarting my cooking skills after 2 years of dormancy.

Immediately noticing a shift in my relationship to food preparation as I’ve deepened my relationship to the fundamentally universal nature of subtle energy in all things.

Succinct infographic of a lot of misguided class warfare and anti-wealth sentiment from the Liberal Left.

Always remember that how we react to every moment of our life will reinforce either our negative habits or positive habits. No matter how challenging life may be, each moment can be seen as either a problem or an opportunity. If we can understand this, we can start to bring our entire life to the path.

~ Chamtrul Rinpoche

You might ask, ‟If I have Buddha nature, why can’t I perceive it right now?”

It is because, like gold hidden in its matrix, that nature is hidden by our habits that we have accumulated since beginningless time. These habits have been created by our disturbing emotions and then reinforced by the actions that those disturbances have produced.

~ Shechen Gyaltsab

The ultimate nature of the mind is empty and without basis. It is intangible like empty space. But this is not a nihilistic view. Self-arisen, primordial consciousness is original, clear consciousness. Self-arisen and self-illuminating, it is like the essence of the sun.

~ Guru Rinpoche

 

Do Not Do a Vipassana Retreat. Do Not Practice Transcendental Meditation. Do Not Pass Go.

If you would like to progress quickly along the spiritual path through meditation, do not go to a Vipassana retreat.
Do not practice transcendental meditation.
Do not learn from a teacher whose central teaching is mindfulness.
These are all inferior methods that will likely slow down your progress for years, leave you stuck in meditative eddies, leave you feeling frustrated, and will likely lead to you giving up on meditation as a transformational practice.
I have seen this happen to too many people.
There are many far better options for learning how to meditate.
For the sake of all beings,
Heed these words of caution.

If You Intuitively Sense Something is “Off” with Someone, Is There a High Likelihood They’re a Depraved Abuser?

One things I’ve been mulling on with the #metoo movement is reconciling the statistical prevalence of all the people who do depraved shit: Domestic Abuse, Sexual Abuse, Pedophilia, Incest etc

And who the people are who are committing these crimes?

How many of them silently live in the communities and social events we co-mingle with?

As many people who I have intuitively sensed there was something ‘off’ with them, have been outted as Alleged Depraved Abusers, I’m wondering how reliable the intuitive impression of something being off about somebody is a predictor of Depravity?

By my back of the napkin calculations, it seems like it very likely is a very good predictor.

Take a look at the statistics:

Domestic Abuse: 1 in 3 women and 1 in 4 men have been victims of [some form of] physical violence by an intimate partner within their lifetime.

Sexual Assault: One in four women and one in six men will be sexually assaulted in their lifetime.

Pedophilia: Self-report studies show that 20% of adult females and 5-10% of adult males recall a childhood sexual assault or sexual abuse incident;

Incest: an overwhelming incidence of sexual abuse happens within the family. These statistics are well known among industry professionals, who are often quick to add, “and this is a notoriously underreported crime.”

So unless all of these crimes are highly clustered amongst a very small subset of people, rather than these types of crimes being more individual distributed

i.e. is it more likely there a few people who commit domestic abuse, sexual abuse, pedophilia and incest, or is more likely there some people who commit domestic abuse and others sexual abuse but not both?

I would lean to the crimes being more evenly distributed.

And if that’s the case then I roughly estimate 15-25% of the population commits these Depravities.

And I would wager that the intuitive sense of something being ‘off’ about someone is picking up on connection to these Depravities… either as a Depraved Perpetrator or a Depraved Victim, or more likely both — as abusers were usually at one point in their life the abused. As abuse is a notoriously hard behavioral, physiological and karmic cycle to break.

What are your thoughts on this?

Does this rough bayesian inference estimation method of Off-ness correlating to Depravity make sense? Can anyone better at Bayesian math tan me put some more rigorous bayesian math behind this?

Books I Read in 2017 // Do You Have Recommendations for 2018?

As 2017 comes to a close I was taking inventory of the books I’ve read this year.

All of the ones I read were pretty great and I would highly recommended them.

What are some of your favorite books that you read this year?

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1) Unbeatable Mind: Forge Resiliency and Mental Toughness to Succeed at an Elite Level by Mark Divine (H/T to @Daniel Schmachtenberger for the recommendation)

2) The Precious Treasury of Pith Instructions (The Seven Treasuries Series) by Longchen Rabjam (A core text in the Buddhist Dzogchen lineage)

3) The Dark Challenge by Nick Scott Ram (A lord of the rings style allegory of the battle between light and dark in the universe. Fiction that is much closer to reality than you might think.)

4) The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma by Bessel van der Kolk M.D.

5) The Everything and the Nothing by Meher Baba

6) The Divided Mind by John E. Sarno

7) Hillbilly Elegy: A Memoir of a Family and Culture in Crisis by J.D. Vance

8) The Inevitable: Understanding the 12 Technological Forces That Will Shape Our Future by Kevin Kelly

9) The Road to Ruin: The Global Elites’ Secret Plan for the Next Financial Crisis by Jim Rickards

10) Answers by Mother Meera

11) Trump and a Post-Truth World by Ken Wilber

12) The Accelerating TechnOnomic Medium (ATOM) by Kartik Gada

How Language Can Blinds Us from True Reality

There’s an expression, ‘the moment he learned the word butterfly, he never saw it again’.

We have a tendency to forget to see fresh what we label with words.

Each butterfly is no longer seen as a unique, majestically colored, floating collection of miraculously synchronized particles.

Rather each time we see something moving around with the shape we call ‘butterfly’, we file the object into that mental filing cabinet without a moment of awe, wonder or appreciation.

We live in a prison of our conceptual mental landscape.

We classify all kinds of phenomena into labels and categories we already once defined.

We do this with people, too.

Once people are labeled “a good person or a bad person”, “selfish or selfless”, “intelligent or dumb”, “attractive or unattractive”, “successful or unsuccessful”, “sensitive or insensitive”, we rarely revise our labels.

Information that fits the label is quickly unconsciously tagged and stored. Information that does not is discarded.

Creating the illusion of a far more static, fixed reality, designed to make us feel safe by managing the complexity of this sometimes overwhelming world.

Learning through contemplative practice, to see through the unconscious automaticity of this mental construction process of our reality,

We have the opportunity to pierce the veil,

Experiencing the naked, fresh, continuous novelty of the undifferentiated phenomenological continuum, whose fundamental nature is raw, ultimate light and ultimate sound.

Here deeper truth can be found.

Crushing the stock market for $55,000 in 1 month & funneling the proceeds into an entrepreneurial revolution

I crushed the market for $55,000 in October, more than doubling my starting capital of $50,000 in my prototypical hedge fund.
Which means, since I implemented a full diversified long/short option portfolio on July 1st, I’m now up $81,000 in 122 days for a 162% return.
And to think I’m dusting Wall Street as a fucking Rookie, who has only been actively trading for 5 months, who is only doing this as a part-time, side project, while founding a new tech startup.
And to think I have so much more room to improve — where I’ve already identified more than a dozen areas for personal improvement and capacity for greater edge once I add a team around me and scale up.
I Profit off of the Fallacy of the Efficient Market Hypothesis.
I Profit off of the Fear of Masses and their Emotional Weakness.
I Profit off of those who subscribe to Risk Management — which often means “I’m psychologically weak, ignorant of what really makes the market move, and/or unwilling to put my money where my mouth is and bet on my beliefs about the world”.
I Profit off of having a better Model of the World:
What’s growing faster than consensus, what’s contracting faster than consensus, and synthesizing the multivariate perspectives of the Macroscope and the Microscope.
Most people making money on Wall Street are just fucking Arbitrage Whores and Middle Men skimming off the technical inefficiencies of the market, because they don’t have any real insight about the world and where it’s going.
I beast the Long Side and the Short Side. I change my strategy when the world the changes. I’m flexible, pliable and adaptive.
“I’m the fucking future.” – Conor Mcgregor, “They don’t think like me, they don’t talk like me, they don’t move like me.”
I will continue to do what others think is impossible in all areas of life.
I’m a different breed of human.
Money has never been a particularly abundant area of my life, as I’ve never taken a job for the money, I’ve invested heavily in my health (both recovering from illness and maximizing wellness), I’ve invested heavily in my personal development over saving money, and I’ve always pursued what I’m most passionate about, even when there was little or no money to be found doing so.
I’ve lived many lean years on under $40k, grinding through founder startup salaries and un-lucrative but meaningful consulting projects.
I had a 6 figure cash-out once, but spent most of that money pursuing a new startup and recovering from the long depression that ensued when it failed.
Now refreshingly, I’ve found a way to directly convert my Genius directly into $$$.
You know what makes this victory even sweeter?
From July 2016 to June 2017, I was struggling with depression and being broke, while searching for the path where I could simultaneously pay my bills and work on starting a new tech company that had a long runway before it could pay me.
I was spending a lot of time studying political and economic trends, financial markets and the systemic instability of the world’s current trajectory.
I was helping my parents re-allocate their retirement portfolio and eventually felt confident enough in my understanding of the markets that I asked them if I could reinvest some of the left over money in an account that was set aside for my college education. Capital that had just been sitting there since I dropped out of Stanford in my first quarter in 2010.
This is where the majority of my starting capital for my prototypical hedge fund came from.
So, now with this exponentially growing capital in my treasure chest, I’m ready to unleash my Genius in many areas of the world simultaneously.
“I envision two, possibly three, belts on my shoulder.” – Conor McGregor
I will suck money out of the Financial System and funnel it into projects that will catalyze the Systemic Evolution and Development of the world.
I’ve got a new tech startup launching soon that will do more to accelerate the consciousness of the planet than anything being worked on today.
I’ve got a book coming out next year that revolutionize the management science of entrepreneurship and innovation for all who are ready to metabolize its message.
I’ve got more exciting projects in the pipeline that I haven’t even talked about yet.
“Make no mistake, I am setting up to be the greatest of all time. I am working towards it and, I will go down as the greatest of all time. – Conor McGregor”
The Old World Order is Breaking Down.
Environmental Destruction. Massive Wealth Inequality. Political Regression.
We are at a Chaos Point.
We will Level Up or Level Down.
Evolve or Regress.
The Status Quo is no longer stable.
The Path to Successfully bringing the New Paradigm into Existence rests on outcompeting the Old World at its own Game.
By being better at Finance. Better at Business. Better at Relationships. Better at Thinking. Better at Feeling. Better at Life.
Soon I will be inviting many more of you to join me in this Revolutionary Campaign.
And if that’s not for you, well then enjoy the show.
Just don’t get in my way.
🙏😘